Venting I've been paranoid lately

[Judah]

I don't know, in real life there were people who hid things from me, they hid everything from me, and I was simply delusional, I feel like everyone will somehow take advantage of me, or make fun of me, I can't trust anyone anymore, people are cruel and merciless and I hope that all those people suffer the same thing that I had to go through because of all this

I don't even know if I want to continue living, they destroyed my dreams

 

[Blackswede]

Who destroyed your dreams? What happened?

 

[Worndown]

It does sound like you are paranoid. That is not good.
You might want to sit down and take a few deep breaths.
I am glad you noticed. It means you are aware and can get through this.
It might be good to check in with any local resources you work with.