paroxysm
I Felt Nothing
- Sep 17, 2023
- 105
im still happy but my excitement has calmed down. i am going to slit my wrist and take some painkillers + DPH. i will at least try and update you guys on what im feeling, whats happening etc. not bothering on leaving a note just want to get out of here asap.
11:59 PM i got 2 shirts i dont care about so i can bleed on them and not get my bed wet and bloody. my pill bottles are open and i think im gonna take the painkiller first so the wrist cutting wont feel as bad.
12:13 AM i took 3 painkillers and im getting a minor headache. other than that i feel fine. im gonna make some test cuts seeing how fast those pills worked.
12:29 AM holy shit that last cut was deeper than i thought. i can feel my blood seeping out and running down my arm. its cold. i took 3 painkillers and my cuts only sting a little. i guess the adrenaline is finally kicking in cause my headache is turning into lightheadedness.
12:47 AM maybe its the music im listening to but the adrenaline is gone and im feeling depressed like a melancholic sadness. i keep thinking about my life and memories. i took 2 more painkillers. i plan on taking a few at a time so i wont vomit from just taking all of them
1:10 AM i took 4 pills of DPH and now im gonna take 2 more painkillers. i think my body has around 2,500 mg of acetaminophen and 100mg of DPH in it. my body weighs 109 lbs/49 kg so the effects might work faster for me. i feel tired but not to the point of sleeping.
1:34 AM ive officially reached 4,000 mg of acetaminophen. if i take more i will reach OD territory. i still feel sleepy but not sleepy enough to lay down.
11:59 PM i got 2 shirts i dont care about so i can bleed on them and not get my bed wet and bloody. my pill bottles are open and i think im gonna take the painkiller first so the wrist cutting wont feel as bad.
12:13 AM i took 3 painkillers and im getting a minor headache. other than that i feel fine. im gonna make some test cuts seeing how fast those pills worked.
12:29 AM holy shit that last cut was deeper than i thought. i can feel my blood seeping out and running down my arm. its cold. i took 3 painkillers and my cuts only sting a little. i guess the adrenaline is finally kicking in cause my headache is turning into lightheadedness.
12:47 AM maybe its the music im listening to but the adrenaline is gone and im feeling depressed like a melancholic sadness. i keep thinking about my life and memories. i took 2 more painkillers. i plan on taking a few at a time so i wont vomit from just taking all of them
1:10 AM i took 4 pills of DPH and now im gonna take 2 more painkillers. i think my body has around 2,500 mg of acetaminophen and 100mg of DPH in it. my body weighs 109 lbs/49 kg so the effects might work faster for me. i feel tired but not to the point of sleeping.
1:34 AM ive officially reached 4,000 mg of acetaminophen. if i take more i will reach OD territory. i still feel sleepy but not sleepy enough to lay down.
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