It’s… suprisingly difficult to ctb

[Isaaccove]

It's just annoying. I'm 20 and have been really waiting patiently for the magical age of 21 in 2 months when I can finally start the process of buying a handgun but I honestly would do it right now if I wanted to. But I can't do processes that take a concentrated mind over the course of a few minutes like hanging or else I'd become too terrified and probably bail. I can't buy otc medications because they are too painful- so are… like 90% of easily accessible overdose options. The idea of jumping from a very high fall is absolutely terrifying (especially if I change my mind mid fall). I tried buying sodium nitrite a month or so ago but that just cancelled itself because it's apparently illegal in my area. I wish there was just a button I could press to unalive myself instantly.

 

[badtothebone]

Killing our self is not easy to do. Don't rush give yourself a chance to live try new things or habits..

 

[CantDoIt]

Yeah, it's incredibly difficult. Even SN I feel nervous about, and I have it with me right now. When I imagine taking N, I imagine myself as that sad dog on the box that needs to be 'put down' and I wanna cry haha. I honestly think that we are meant to feel a certain trepidation about doing this.

 

[xxCuteSprinklesxx]

I can understand how u feel. It's really difficult to ctb. Even for me, the only method available is jumping. I'm still learning how to overcome the SI. It's really not easy
:(

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as I certainly feel so tired of suffering in this existence, it's so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to just painlessly die in peace, it'd bring me so much relief to be able to simply cease existing, it truly is so dreadful and torturous suffering here when I just wish to be gone. But anyway I wish you all the best.

 

[Mebius]

Take it slow, gun is best way to die of you choose to give up, also plenty of time to enjoy some last vices