Venting it's so hard to come over SI

[Bad-luck]

why does it have to be so god damn hard? every time i try to CTB, my hand just starts to shake and my hearts starts to beat fast. Even though I want to CTB, my body won't let me. If I didn't have SI, I would've been dead by now. I don't even want to take any drugs or anything like that because it simply won't be good and just goes against my morals. I am done. I want to be done. I want to this to be finally over.

 

[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

You should get euthanasia but since that is not the case, you have to do it yourself. When the pain of living is stronger than self-preservation, suicide will not be difficult, I promise. You have also to be brave - can you do that?

 

[Bad-luck]

You should get euthanasia but since that is not the case, you have to do it yourself. When the pain of living is stronger than self-preservation, suicide will not be difficult, I promise. You have also to be brave - can you do that?

that's the thing. I don't know how to be brave. Any advice?

 

[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

Dear Sanctioned Suicide member, I was only trying to help you. Suicide is not for cowards. If you don´t have enough courage to die, suicide is probably not for you. However you are not alone, many people are in your situation. I myself am one of them. But anyone can be brave - ask a soldier about bravery! I wish you the best.

 

[Bad-luck]

Dear Sanctioned Suicide member, I was only trying to help you. Suicide is not for cowards. If you don´t have enough courage to die, suicide is probably not for you. However you are not alone, many people are in your situation. I myself am one of them. But anyone can be brave - ask a soldier about bravery! I wish you the best.

I think i get it. Thank you!

 

[Olisop21.]

why does it have to be so god damn hard? every time i try to CTB, my hand just starts to shake and my hearts starts to beat fast. Even though I want to CTB, my body won't let me. If I didn't have SI, I would've been dead by now. I don't even want to take any drugs or anything like that because it simply won't be good and just goes against my morals. I am done. I want to be done. I want to this to be finally over.

I feel the exact same way. Death can't come soon enough. SI are soooo strong.

 

[FuneralCry]

It certainly is far too unnecessarily difficult to die, I understand why you'd feel so frustrated. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

 

[Endisclose]

I had this problem in my college days when I was 19 or so.. I am 42 now and I feel little to no SI with SN. I still feel apprehensive with hanging though.. I guess if one lives long enough, life will eventually beat the SI out of one's system so that it becomes easier to catch the bus.. time will eventually provide a solution in most cases.. For those in a hurry i really have no answer though .