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onyx559

onyx559

Hiraeth
Apr 12, 2023
42
Do you still want to ctb?
I do but i've sorta lost hope with it. I don't have the means for other methods I want to do, gun and sn but for some reason I keep thinking If I can survive getting hit by a freight train are any other attempts I make going to be successful? So i've just mindlessly "living" (I lay in bed all day) day by day.
 
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lita-lassi

lita-lassi

let me spell it out for you: go to hell
Sep 25, 2023
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i dont see a point in making my last moments anyone else's personal hell and potentially traumatizing them into any remotely similar headspace as my own which caused the need to want to die. like, we know how shitty that feels. why would you do that to anyone else.

finding a body on accident is significantly different from being the person to kill the body.
 
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Slow_Farewell

Slow_Farewell

Warlock
Dec 19, 2023
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Personally, i don't understand why it's classified as "blaming" simply because it's labelled as "selfish".

we can go over the semantics of it, but at the end of the day, it's who benefits from the action that classifies it as "selfish" or "inconsiderate". In a CTB scenario, even if the attempt is unsuccessful (meaning the person survives) carrying out the attempt itself (i.e.: jumping in front of the train) benefits only one person: the one attempting. The fact that it succeeds or fails is an entirely different thing.

Yes, we have different circumstances, and no one is in a position to tell someone or the other why their misery is not enough to warrant a CTB attempt or not.

Trauma suffered via the act of watching someone suffering before the end and trauma suffered from seeing a dead body isn't really in the same league, so it wouldn't be accurate to lump them together and say that the amount of trauma is just the same.

TL:DR; I agree with @UKscotty , @lita-lassi
 

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