Venting it’s not worth it anymore

[sweeterthanchocolat]

i hate everything my partner doesn't show love or even talk to me unless i'm pleasing him and he openly talks about loving someone else and i can't say anything about it because it'll ruin him my grades are fucked i cant bring myself to do most shit that i did easily just a couple weeks ago i don't even know what's causing this i am so fucked i could try to ctb but most methods i have access to have low success rates and i live in a shit muslim country where alcohol is not allowed so getting SN is probably gonna be hard as shit i don't want to live anymore

 

[Octavia]

Being stuck in a muslim country as a woman has to be one of the most awful situations to be in. I'm sorry you are dealing with that kind of torture.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be awful feeling trapped in that situation and I certainly hate how it can be so difficult to finally die, I see it as being so cruel how humans are denied the option to just pass away in peace without risks and complications, failing a ctb attempt certainly sounds so horrible to me. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[EmpathyMinded]

i hate everything my partner doesn't show love or even talk to me unless i'm pleasing him and he openly talks about loving someone else and i can't say anything about it because it'll ruin him my grades are fucked i cant bring myself to do most shit that i did easily just a couple weeks ago i don't even know what's causing this i am so fucked i could try to ctb but most methods i have access to have low success rates and i live in a shit muslim country where alcohol is not allowed so getting SN is probably gonna be hard as shit i don't want to live anymore

I'm sorry you are struggling like this. Are you able to leave the relationship? I don't know how viable it is but if there is a way that seems like it's worth trying. Would be a jarring change but worth it to get through. For however long you are here you shouldn't e stuck dealing with someone like that, a partner should show they care about you, period.

 

[sweeterthanchocolat]

I'm sorry you are struggling like this. Are you able to leave the relationship? I don't know how viable it is but if there is a way that seems like it's worth trying. Would be a jarring change but worth it to get through. For however long you are here you shouldn't e stuck dealing with someone like that, a partner should show they care about you, period.

i don't want to because it'll ruin him

 

[EmpathyMinded]

i don't want to because it'll ruin him

You're placing value only on his feelings though. Yours matters too I think.

 

[sweeterthanchocolat]

You're placing value only on his feelings though. Yours matters too I think.

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