colorlesshue
all guts no glory; all survivor no guilt.
- Jun 28, 2023
- 131
tw//self harm and suicide mentions
I did something stupid and caused a rift in my relationship And I'm such an idiot. their such a great person and just because I couldn't stop talking about things it might be over but I don't blame them. I adore them so much and I don't blame them for anything, I'm the one who fucked up and I'm the once who failed us and now I'm sitting pathetically in some bathroom trying to cut myself with a dull box cutter and it's not fucking working and it's all too much. if they break up with me I'm planning on CTB tonight their really the only thing holding me back at this point. i know I have friends that'll miss me but God I couldn't care less at this point, maybe that's mean but the urge to just make it stop overpowers and love I feel for anyone else. maybe it's my abusers fault I can barely feel love or express it, or maybe it's my own for being g so defective . I wish I could say but the box cutters don't work anymore and I'm getting inpatient
I did something stupid and caused a rift in my relationship And I'm such an idiot. their such a great person and just because I couldn't stop talking about things it might be over but I don't blame them. I adore them so much and I don't blame them for anything, I'm the one who fucked up and I'm the once who failed us and now I'm sitting pathetically in some bathroom trying to cut myself with a dull box cutter and it's not fucking working and it's all too much. if they break up with me I'm planning on CTB tonight their really the only thing holding me back at this point. i know I have friends that'll miss me but God I couldn't care less at this point, maybe that's mean but the urge to just make it stop overpowers and love I feel for anyone else. maybe it's my abusers fault I can barely feel love or express it, or maybe it's my own for being g so defective . I wish I could say but the box cutters don't work anymore and I'm getting inpatient
