It's My Birthday

[Samsal112]

This is definitely a pity post, and I realize how childish it sounds. Normally, I am not one to want to off myself because of lack of friends or unrequited love, but with being suicidal for three years, little things begin to pile up.

My mom made both my siblings (we're all adults, so this sounds even more childish) their favorite meal with birthday cake and ice-cream for their birthdays. Today, I got a cake only because she had a left over one in the cabinet from my brother's birthday, and she forgot the ice cream. She tried making it up by using my brother's left over cake decorations to decorate the cake. I not only didn't get asked what meal I would want, but she made something I would never eat.

She doesn't understand why I am angry. Which makes sense considering she didn't understand why I was upset when she didn't make it to my BA graduation, supported me through my PhD, or caught that I was becoming ill due to the antidepressants and benzos. She can't understand that while the rest of the world puts me last EVERY SINGLE DAY, she makes no effort to put me first for one day.

My birthday is representative of my life; I have had to share this one day with Father's Day and my grandfather's birthday all my life. I couldn't even get one fucking day to myself.

The one person I wanted to say "Happy Birthday" didn't and of course I didn't get many "Happy Birthdays" all together today.

 

[BetweenRadioStations]

happy birthday. I wish I had something more profound to say but I dont. Just want you to know that I read your post and Im listening.

 

[rationaltake]

I wish you Happy Birthday. I hope you can do something good for yourself.

I know from experience it cuts deep when your mother is totally unfair and plays favourites.

 

[noalarms]

Happy Birthday, make sure to treat yourself if you can, people won't always celebrate with you, but you can still make the most of it.

I just try to treat my birthday as a milestone on the journey to my final rest, thinking about how far I have come, the obstacles I have faced, and how much closer I am to peace.

 

[GreenTree]

Bless you. Happy birthday. I wish you all the best.

 

[virgilwalks]

Read your post and wish you happy birthday. The way your mom behaved is just awful. Putting together a meal and cake and ice cream once a year isn't a tall order and she made you feel "lesser than" which is wrong. It's not a competition but in many various years my parents who are divorced a long time now - just kind of don't acknowledge my birthday until after its passed or call me on the wrong day before. I mean you'd think the day your first kid was born would be a notable one. It's not an issue or memory - or cognition - it's just not important to them. Which is ridiculous.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

The one person I wanted to say "Happy Birthday" didn't and of course I didn't get many "Happy Birthdays" all together today.

Oh boy I've definitely had all of this, but happy birthday anyway.

 

[Sibyl Vane]

Happy birthday! My birthdays are the most depressing days of the year for me. There are no congratulations, hugs, or cakes in my house. Hopefully, yours goes a little bit better regardless of the situation with your mother. I wish you all the best and that you may conquer all that you desire in this life.

 

[nightnightnitrite]

I'm so sorry you feel underappreciated and unrecognized especially on your birthday out of all days. I hope next year you're able to celebrate exactly the way you want <3

 

[Ta555]

Hey! Long time no see. Wishing you happy birthday day from down here :)

 

[friendofbirds]

happy birthday! i am really deeply sorry that the people in your life do not appreciate you enough. i will pray that changes for you soon. like others have said, i think you should do something nice for yourself, even if its just watching a movie you like or something similar.

 

[outatime_85]

First, I don't think your post or thought is childish.

I do not think anyone wants to feel or think their parents are purposefully neglecting them or playing favorites.

And I am not sure how one would handle parents who do such things, so I will leave those answers to more enlightened individuals.

That being said, happy birthday to you, and I do hope there were some moments of joy for you on your special day.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you have to deal with someone like that. To me it is awful how other people can make everything worse. This life really is so unfair. I wish you relief from suffering.

 

[Nirrend]

Happy birthday friend <3

Stay strong !