Venting It’s impossible to get better but it all could have been avoided.

[Schnipsel]

If I just had been on puberty blockers I wouldn't have to suffer like this. I'm done. I went on HRT and everything, but it just can't undo me the fucking changes from my first puberty. And I'll never have the money to avoid FFS or anything (health insurance doesn't pay for it where I live).

I exhausted any avenue to get better available to me and it did help, but like not nearly enough to make my life feel remotely worth living.
And it all could have been fucking avoided if I just had been on puberty blockers.

 

[Linda]

Thinking about what might have been won't do you any good. You start from where you are now. Try to make your transition work.
There have been trans people for as long as there have been people, and until recent decades they had to get by without puberty blockers, or any kind of hormone treatment, or any kind of surgery (except, sometimes, simple castration). You are in a far better situation than they were..

 

[Schnipsel]

You are in a far better situation than they were..

Sorry, but "others have it worse" is really in no way helping. I feel an unbearable psychological terror 24/7, this doesn't get better by how other people feel. And yes, trans people have always existed but as long as we have existed, trans people have decided to end things because of gender dysphoria. A significant amount of my trans friends over the years are not here anymore.

If "making my transition work" was just as simple as you make it sound, do you think I'd not just do it? My life has been hell as long as I can remember. Idk if you're trans and if so, if you have gender dysphoria, but I can't convey how horrifying the feeling is.