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kosmischerunfall

kosmischerunfall

Student
Jan 7, 2024
196
Ahhh man, never thought it would happen, but today is my last day and later I will kill myself in a tent with night night or helium.

Today I wanna try alcohol for the first time and get drunk! I want to try so many different things, maybe you could recommend me some:)

Also will play with my sister for the last time, scared of it but when I stay here it hurts much more.

Will do the preparations after I did everything here.

Feel so good, because I gave some things back, confessed my feelings..

Sorry that the text is so messy, will do a proper goodbye later:D
 
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DskDsk

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Feb 24, 2021
51
Best Wishes!! May you get freed from Earth!!
 
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Kitsuné_

Student
Sep 8, 2025
173
Just a small advice, if u have never tried alcohol, chances are you are going to get sick and impaired for anything that comes later. Take it easy, 2 or 3 beers will suffice.

I hope everything go as planned. May u rest forever 💐
 
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LoverofAnimals

LoverofAnimals

Giver of Hugs
Sep 20, 2025
185
Good luck, and I hope you find peace 🕊️
 
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58Alice85

58Alice85

Autogynephile
Aug 31, 2025
378
Have fun!
 
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StoneBridge

☁️
Sep 7, 2025
163
I wish everything goes as you wish. ❤️
 
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decayingdoll

decayingdoll

✚𓏼 ̣̣ 🦴 ༷𓈒‿ 𑣿
Sep 15, 2025
51
hey, me too :) please take care of yourself ! you deserve peace in your final moments
i hope we meet in heaven <3
 
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
1,114
This is unusual for me, but I'd just like to pop in and say, I hope you stay longer. My gut just has this feeling there's more for you. Enjoy your sister, have a beer. And just consider if you want to stay around for another little while.
 
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ctgirl93

Member
Dec 9, 2019
12
Hope you find the peace you are looking for :)
 
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stardewwindceres

stardewwindceres

Flesh Coffin
Oct 2, 2025
108
I just opened my computer and sasu was the first opened website tab and this was the first thing I clicked on and it made me start to think of things too. Let's see...

Is there any type of food you've never tried that you want to that you could order? Or even if not, think of something realllly good as like a last meal kind of thing?
Any movie you've been wanted to see? Or any type of entertainment thing?
An activity you've always wanted to do (something you actually could do in a day) but have never gotten around to doing?
hmmm...I don't know where you live, it may be boring as hell, but if you have the time, is there a place near where you live that might be interesting to go to? For example, I live in a shithole town (if you can even call it that), but I maybe would spend the time to go into the city to the zoo or natural history museum because I used to like that kind of thing.
Is there something you used to love doing, but you've lost interest in because of how shitty you've been feeling, but maybe doing it could be like a nostalgia thing? Or it could just be a fun thing to do on your last day, nostalgic or not.
Is there anything you used to like doing before life got so awful that you could do today that might be fun?
I don't know what your hobbies are or what you like to do for fun, but make sure you have as much fun as possible today.

I've always thought your last day on Earth (anyones' last day) would be the most freeing day ever. You can tell anyone anything you want, good or bad, do anything you want, good or bad. I mean think of one of the most awful things you can do. As long as you are discreet about it, it doesn't matter because you'll be dead by the end of that day. I just mean this as an example of how FREEING yours, anyones' last day of Earth is. Of course, you can also do the best things on your last day. Like if you had a lot of money, you're not going to use it ever again, so you could give to the poorest people and completely change their lives. Ha sorry, got off track a bit there. But you get the idea, I hope.

Anyway, I wish you luck. I hope you find the peace you are looking for and the peace you need. And I hope you have the best last day!
 
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StoneBridge

☁️
Sep 7, 2025
163
This is unusual for me, but I'd just like to pop in and say, I hope you stay longer. My gut just has this feeling there's more for you. Enjoy your sister, have a beer. And just consider if you want to stay around for another little while.
Sounds it's worth to try. ❤️
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,382
I am so sorry that life has brought you to this point 🫂:heart:
 
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corpse

corpse

dead inside
Aug 31, 2025
250
I'm sorry you're leaving, but I understand. I wish you peace.
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

2036-01-10T08
Apr 10, 2025
2,203
(sorry for ghost quote earlier)

wow, the first option was smth I tried (tho I skipped steps and it was more of a tight scarf, I think I learnt all the steps tho don't feel like CTB'ing... so that is that)

Helium was smth I kinda daydreamed about when reading the 5 Last Acts / PPH.

Either way... if unsure, you can always defer.
I wish you a good ride:)
How will you ctb if you don't mind me asking:)?

yessssss, let's meet in heaven and have a picnic
night night and helium according to post... probably first trying night night, and helium is there as backup.
 
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honorando

honorando

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Jun 26, 2025
37
I am happy for you!
 
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decayingdoll

decayingdoll

✚𓏼 ̣̣ 🦴 ༷𓈒‿ 𑣿
Sep 15, 2025
51
I wish you a good ride:)
How will you ctb if you don't mind me asking:)?

yessssss, let's meet in heaven and have a picnic

yes omgg i hope we have a nice picnic ><
i'll be taking SN with meto tomorrow :) wish you a painless and peaceful ride 🫂
 
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MissAbyss

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Jul 20, 2025
585
✨️ Wishing you eternal peace ✨
 
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moonmuse

moonmuse

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Sep 30, 2025
72
peace be on u friend i will join u guys too
 
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karenin

karenin

I know I'm not right, but I'm not wrong
Sep 22, 2025
29
Don't know what to say.

I'm worried but also happy for you.

Please be careful and prepare well.

Enjoy your beer, and maybe have some pierogi! 🥰

I wish you peaceful and painless departure.
 
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ThatGuyOverThere

ThatGuyOverThere

David Benatar Enjoyer
Apr 25, 2024
189
Lucky, Good for you, Hope you get that eternal peace we all strive for.

Good luck!
 
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