its getting more and more real

[itriedinthislife2]

i already know im going to do it but damn its getting real i have the pistol next to me on my bed and it has three hollow point rounds in it which will 100% take me out. 9mm

is it normal to feel death before i pull that trigger. i havent done it yet because i said ill stay for my birthday (preface)

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

Your body is in rush during SI and it just feels more real because you know your mind and spirit is glued on this thing you know will give you a sense of peace. I'm just asking you to take some deep breaths and fully think things through if this is your choice, though, as there could be accidents and short comings, especially if you are fast with it and you may survive or you may accidentally si without you fully acknowledging a do over until its too late. Just wishing you the best regardless <3

 

[SVEN]

I'm not sure that anyone who knows "is it normal" and can advise is still here to do so.
I'm guessing that SI will be presenting a kaleidescope of feelings in those last few seconds.
Best wishes in finding peace.

 

[itriedinthislife2]

Your body is in rush during SI and it just feels more real because you know your mind and spirit is glued on this thing you know will give you a sense of peace. I'm just asking you to take some deep breaths and fully think things through if this is your choice, though, as there could be accidents and short comings, especially if you are fast with it and you may survive or you may accidentally si without you fully acknowledging a do over until its too late. Just wishing you the best regardless <3

i appreciate your comment. ill give it time before i decide its my time to go but ill position it perfectly to the side of my head pressing down on my head and pull the trigger and the hollow point round will pierce through my head and 96% surely kill me instantly or within a min tops. its a 9mm and i decided to go with hollow tip rounds as they well, do the most damage and ripple around

ill be long gone

Your body is in rush during SI and it just feels more real because you know your mind and spirit is glued on this thing you know will give you a sense of peace. I'm just asking you to take some deep breaths and fully think things through if this is your choice, though, as there could be accidents and short comings, especially if you are fast with it and you may survive or you may accidentally si without you fully acknowledging a do over until its too late. Just wishing you the best regardless <3

lets just say theres no re-dos once i pull that trigger so i need to be 100% certain

A hollow-point bullet is a type of expanding bullet which expands on impact with a soft target

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

i appreciate your comment. ill give it time before i decide its my time to go but ill position it perfectly to the side of my head pressing down on my head and pull the trigger and the hollow point round will pierce through my head and 96% surely kill me instantly or within a min tops. its a 9mm and i decided to go with hollow tip rounds as they well, do the most damage and ripple around

ill be long gone

Perfect… just perfect

Take your time and know you are doing everything you possibly can in the moment to make sure your needs are met and your okay before your gone.

And hey, that's a nice measure for a magazine. I hope you don't feel any pain.

 

[itriedinthislife2]

Perfect… just perfect

Take your time and know you are doing everything you possibly can in the moment to make sure your needs are met and your okay before your gone.

And hey, that's a nice measure for a magazine. I hope you don't feel any pain.

hey i appreciate you kind person

once that trigger is pulled im out and it will be scary for whoever finds me and as you can already probably envision it. yeah i decided to just fill the clip even though ill only need 1 for me.

thank you. ill do a last moments post before i do it here on sasu

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

hey i appreciate you kind person

once that trigger is pulled im out and it will be scary for whoever finds me and as you can already probably envision it. yeah i decided to just fill the clip even though ill only need 1 for me.

thank you. ill do a last moments post before i do it here on sasu

I'm so glad I got to interact with you before you're gone and jealous omg!!

And understood.

I know that guilt but oh well. We need to be happier.

You're kindly welcome and I just thank you too.

Take care and do as you must ((: