NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
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Earlier this month, I made the shoelace ratchet that I'll be using for carotid compression. Just having it sitting on my shelf, ready for whenever I decide to go, has been a comfort and has lessened my anxiety.

But the weather's started getting warmer... I refuse to live through another Summer of climate change Hell. I spend 3-4 months of the year in misery, I physically can't handle the heat. It got to 75F/25C the last few days here. In April. That's just unheard of and it's already too warm for me at those temps. I have maybe another month before I can't take it anymore and CTB.

I do have everything planned out already, though. I still have to write my final letters, but that's all.

My landlady lives out of town and is the only person aside from me who has a key to my room, my roommates can't get in here. When the time comes to CTB, I will hide my key somewhere [to be determined] in the house. I will preferably CTB while my roommates are all at work, in case there's any noise.

I will set up Gmail to send copies of my letters and further instructions to my best friend 2 days after I CTB. The instructions will include the location of my room key, my landlady's phone number, what I want done with my belongings, where to post which letters, etc. I will also give them the logins and passwords for several sites and e-mail accounts that I use [NOTHING that is related to SaSu].
 
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Earlier this month, I made the shoelace ratchet that I'll be using for carotid compression. Just having it sitting on my shelf, ready for whenever I decide to go, has been a comfort and has lessened my anxiety.

But the weather's started getting warmer... I refuse to live through another Summer of climate change Hell. I spend 3-4 months of the year in misery, I physically can't handle the heat. It got to 75F/25C the last few days here. In April. That's just unheard of and it's already too warm for me at those temps. I have maybe another month before I can't take it anymore and CTB.

I do have everything planned out already, though. I still have to write my final letters, but that's all.

My landlady lives out of town and is the only person aside from me who has a key to my room, my roommates can't get in here. When the time comes to CTB, I will hide my key somewhere [to be determined] in the house. I will preferably CTB while my roommates are all at work, in case there's any noise.

I will set up Gmail to send copies of my letters and further instructions to my best friend 2 days after I CTB. The instructions will include the location of my room key, my landlady's phone number, what I want done with my belongings, where to post which letters, etc. I will also give them the logins and passwords for several sites and e-mail accounts that I use [NOTHING that is related to SaSu].
What is it about the warm temperature that causes you such pain?
 
NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
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What is it about the warm temperature that causes you such pain?
I get almost daily migraines from the heat.

I'm also just not good in heat and feel warm and dizzy and awful when it's as low as 70F/20C.

Climate change is not my only reason for CTB, but it's speeding things up. I've also been both mentally ill and physically disabled and in pain every day from nerve damage for the past 22 years.
 
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I get almost daily migraines from the heat.

I'm also just not good in heat and feel warm and dizzy and awful when it's as low as 70F/20C.

Climate change is not my only reason for CTB, but it's speeding things up. I've also been both mentally ill and physically disabled and in pain every day from nerve damage for the past 22 years.
Yeah that's gotta be miserable no doubt. I've had pins and needles consistently before and it was highly uncomfortable doing anything so I can't imagine that longterm
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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The warmer weather certainly is so horrible to me so it's very much understandable just wishing to be gone before then to avoid even more suffering. Life really is so unnecessary cruel but I wish you the best with your plans.
 
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Hope everything goes as planned. Best wishes
 
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