Discussion Its final. Obligated to ctb

[horsefacin]

ive acted strange and distant to a lot of my friends and told my closest about my plans. im now morbidly obligated to go through with this. Not like im complaining, but i only now feel how fast shit is moving now that theres a timer for my life that expires at the end of this week.

Im materially all prepared to go through but im still trying to sort my way through the grief that everyone will deal with

 

[GasMonkey]

What's your method?

 

[horsefacin]

What's your method?

partial suspension with a necktie

 

[TheSadStranger]

Remember you are never obligated to ctb and you always have a choice. I'm not trying to get you to not ctb. I know you can get lost in the mindset that I need to do this and don't even realize it. I'm only sticking around currently because of guilt, so I can relate. Either way I wish you the best.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Why does that make you morally obligated to kill yourself?

 

[horsefacin]

Why does that make you morally obligated to kill yourself?

I cant recover from any of these things man. All my friends and family ive pushed away, the guilt and damage to my body that drugs have done, all the friends ive told about my plans to, and the fact that ive let my grades go so bad that they simply cant be recovered by the end of this semester ( a few weeks). Its a crucial year in HS for me so im pretty much not making it into any college or uni

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I cant recover from any of these things man. All my friends and family ive pushed away, the guilt and damage to my body that drugs have done, all the friends ive told about my plans to, and the fact that ive let my grades go so bad that they simply cant be recovered by the end of this semester ( a few weeks). Its a crucial year in HS for me so im pretty much not making it into any college or uni

Are you 18 or above?

I don't see how that constitutes a moral obligation. Or an obligation period. You're neveR obligated to kill yourself.

How did your friends react when you shared your plans with them?

 

[ChildrensITV]

@horsefacin , this is horseshit. You are under no obligation to CTB. You're in HS so who knows if you're even supposed to be on this forum. That should tell you how much hope you have of things changing. People have failed exams before and gone on to live good lives. You don't need to CTB cuz you said you would. Just tell people: "I decided to stay and retake my exams and quit drugs." Then shrug it off and never talk about it again.

You are not CTBing for the "right" reason. You're CTBing basically because you told people you would, cuz you don't want to resit exams and cuz you did what, some weed or heroine? Come on man. You know this is not enough. Give me something real, then I would support you but this isn't it, bruh. I hope your SI kicks in and you end up just playing Xbox.

 

[TheSadStranger]

ive acted strange and distant to a lot of my friends and told my closest about my plans. im now morbidly obligated to go through with this. Not like im complaining, but i only now feel how fast shit is moving now that theres a timer for my life that expires at the end of this week.

Im materially all prepared to go through but im still trying to sort my way through the grief that everyone will deal with

Normally I would say my spiel about why you should consider your options, but I'll keep it brief. I have suffered all of my life. That is no exaggeration. I have been through it all abuse, heartbreak, and pain. The first time I was ever happy was a 9 month window last year. It was the first time I dreamed about my future. I thought I had made it and my dream was almost within my grasp. Life had other plans. I fucked up and ruined everything. It could've been prevented too. I wanted to ctb after that. To make matters worse I recently got diagnosed with (3C) stage 3 non-small cell lung cancer. I was told I have 13 months left to live. Unlike me however your days aren't numbered and you are under no obligation to ctb. I know it's frowned upon to tell people not to ctb, but I implore you to consider your choices. You have the choice. The ball is in your court. Not everyone gets a happy ending, but you'll never know unless you stick around and find out. In life finding happiness is a pursuit. You have to try.

However take my words with a grain of salt because it's YOUR life not mine. You get to use your free will to do whatever you want regardless of what anyone says. I just hope you will use your time wisely.

I hope the best for you.

 

[LittleJem]

Have you tried medication in case it helps you? Maybe you owe it to your friends and family to see if medication can help before CTB.

I've done a lot I am ashamed of that still makes me wince. But it does lessen over time. In future, a happier you might view everything differently. That it was a young version of you and now you are older and wiser. The shame will fade with time.

 

[orca87]

I can see where this obligation thing comes from, but in case of ctb it's nonsensical.

Why not turn things around in your favour? Tell your friends that you've made the plan to work on your grades, to end doing drugs, to get your life together. That is an obligation that would benefit you. And you would be amazed by the support you'll get.

If everything goes south, you still can ctb. But at least give it a try.

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

You're never obligated to ctb, just tell them you have second thoughts and want to turn your life around. They'll understand.

 

[ASAPLeaving]

You should not force yourself to CTB because you feel "obligated", which you are not.

 

[NotWiseEnough]

you're in HS, are you old enough to be here?

 

[that smell]

Grades in high school don't matter. Neither does anything else that happens in high school. I failed every class and barely even went to school. Enrolled in college 5 years after I graduated and now I have a Masters. You're not obligated to live or die for anyone else.

 

[ChildrensITV]

you're in HS, are you old enough to be here?

He exposed himself here. Mods need to step in to stop this kid from killing himself because of an oral agreement that only he agreed to. It's sad that young kids come here.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just think that after all it's up to you what you should do, it's your life, I know that there are many anti choice people on here who think that suicide is a privilege that must be earned and like to invalidate people's feelings with toxic positivity, but the way that I see it, I don't think that anybody is obligated to live or ctb within a set date. The individual should be able to make the choice for themselves and other people shouldn't have any say in it. I don't recommend telling other people about plans to ctb as after all we exist in such an anti suicide society but anyway best wishes.

 

[QiTianDaSheng]

I don't think you're obligated unless you ran up huge debts/smashed savings and/or did revenge shit first.
No obligation just from telling friends. They might lose some respect for you, but they'd also be relieved.