It's been decided. I will be patient and get my sweet release in time. ( warning some gory descriptions of jumping suicide).

[HermitLonerGuy]

I will try to find a job and save money to CTB. I dont have any money to buy those good methods.
I cant tie a knot for the life of me so hanging is out.
I will find a job then save money and book a hotel room , then buy a gun , maybe some fent, heroin or SN/N from the dark web not sure yet.
I will make a suicide video explaining why and also about all the people who hurt me.
It will take a while maybe till December or Jan i estimate but its worth it than risking a method failing,
cause right now all i can think of is hanging which id probably fuck up , jumping from height which is gruesome and traumatizing ( eg i seen a video where the guys leg got torn off from the force and another one where the guys spine was sticking out and he was crawling around a bit) .
I also consider drowning in the ocean but it looks scary, seeing those waves, the rough sea, the cold water , the salt, its put me off.
I will wait now and save for more effective , peaceful and fast methods .

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Good plan! I hope you can find your preferred method and I hope you can find peace!

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

Good plan! I hope you can find your preferred method and I hope you can find peace!

thank you so much and i wish you peace too my friend.

 

[MrDarkness]

Jumping from a high height has never been pretty, you become like a rag doll an then splat, it's your choice, as for hanging either your eyes will look like bursting or drooling, personal preference idk, I hope your able to find peace in life or death

 

[The anhedonic one]

I've been looking at the Humber bridge and beachy head as possible methods. But the Humber is now patrolled by 2 cars because of suicides, and they have suicide barriers. Only 5 out of 200 suicides have survived the Humber.
Beachy head is much more lethal at 99% effective death rate, yet you have to jump where the cliffs are steepest.
I'm so fucking sick of this torment.
Why can't these pro-lifers just fucking die and leave us alone.
I would literally chop my testicles off for some N right now.
I hope you make the video and finally free yourself from this nightmare world.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

I've been looking at the Humber bridge and beachy head as possible methods. But the Humber is now patrolled by 2 cars because of suicides, and they have suicide barriers. Only 5 out of 200 suicides have survived the Humber.
Beachy head is much more lethal at 99% effective death rate, yet you have to jump where the cliffs are steepest.
I'm so fucking sick of this torment.
Why can't these pro-lifers just fucking die and leave us alone.
I would literally chop my testicles off for some N right now.
I hope you make the video and finally free yourself from this nightmare world.

thank you so much for your well wishes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think you are fortunate if you are able to access a peaceful and reliable method, I hate how methods like that are so difficult to access in this dreadful world, failing a less desirable method certainly sounds so horrible to me. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans and hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

I think you are fortunate if you are able to access a peaceful and reliable method, I hate how methods like that are so difficult to access in this dreadful world, failing a less desirable method certainly sounds so horrible to me. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans and hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

thank you funeralcry , what would be your ideal method?

 

[deomlez]

[Warning explicite content about jumping]I have seen a video of a jumping in a mall near Paris (the result, not the fall or ground impact ; why someone has filmed, except to let me see that ? I'm not very comfortable with that shows about me) it was so clean and not as i expected, gore and with brain, blood splat everywhere etc. Just seen a man lying, his head wasn't blown up, there were only a blood puddle under it.

 

[FuneralCry]

thank you funeralcry , what would be your ideal method?

For me it would be something as peaceful as Nembutal, it sounds so ideal being able to leave this world in such a peaceful way.

 

[cscott]

[Warning explicite content about jumping]I have seen a video of a jumping in a mall near Paris (the result, not the fall or ground impact ; why someone has filmed, except to let me see that ? I'm not very comfortable with that shows about me) it was so clean and not as i expected, gore and with brain, blood splat everywhere etc. Just seen a man lying, his head wasn't blown up, there were only a blood puddle under it.

This is what u saw on the video? Of some commit suicide ..

What height did they jump from ?

 

[Dazai21]

You've made the right dicesion. I will do either.

I'll be gone on November apparently.

Hope you find your peace. Good luck with your plans.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

You've made the right dicesion. I will do either.

I'll be gone on November apparently.

Hope you find your peace. Good luck with your plans.

thanks whats your method?

 

[Dazai21]

SN

thanks whats your method?

 

[deomlez]

This is what u saw on the video? Of some commit suicide ..

What height did they jump from ?

Only 1 person, 3rd level, i don t know more, except there was a loud noise on impact and a panic movement due to the noise, people thought about an attack. The video shows only the man on the ground.