Venting it's been a while since I was here

[Space Outlaw Bunny]

hi
I don't know if someone remembers me
almost a year ago, I wanted to write a post about what happened when I was in an open ward (the best time of my life, not counting a break-up with my long-term partner)
I don't why I didn't write this
maybe I felt better, maybe I felt worse
this year feel like a fever dream
but I know now it's much worse
I can't finish a uni, maybe they will finally kick me out
I had a second change, but I wasted it
I'm cutting myself almost after 10 years, but now on my the upper wrist part with a small kitchen knife for vegetables
I want to disappear more that even
I will give back all the money my mama spent on me for 4 years
it will take me maybe 2 years
and then I will disappear
now I will be here

cookie for everyone who read this

 

[Steff1337]

I'm sure we're all glad to have you here again.

 

[etherealspring]

hello and welcome back ♡

 

[Space Outlaw Bunny]

I'm sure we're all glad to have you here again.

hello and welcome back ♡

thank you all, including from reacting, it means a lot to me

 

[LoiteringClouds]

I don't know if someone remembers me

Hello @Space Outlaw Bunny and welcome back!

I remember you frequented Forum Games section.
I'm so sorry your situation is much worse now, but I hope your days will be a bit less unbearable

 

[ebsyyy]

Hey, what do you study?

 

[Space Outlaw Bunny]

Hey, what do you study?

I'm in film studies, year 3. I would prefer to go to film school, but I didn't have experience, knew nothing about making something and a portfolio. And it's really hard to be accepted. Now I have some experience, I know how to little make a video montage (I want to be a movie director/screenwriter in animation productions) and we had an assignment to make a short movie in a group, so maybe if I will finish a uni I'll be trying, maybe in a different country (I live in Central Eastern Europe, but it's not too hard to find where basic on my posts, maybe I even mentioned it a year ago somewhere)

Hello @Space Outlaw Bunny and welcome back!

I remember you frequented Forum Games section.
I'm so sorry your situation is much worse now, but I hope your days will be a bit less unbearable

HI, I REMEMBER HAVING SO MUCH TIME WITH YOU AND OTHER MEMBERS IN A GAME SECTION! IT'S SO COOL "SEE" FAMILIAR "FACE"