This is just some useless personal vent about my situation
Its the start of exam time for me and wouldn't you know I'm failing everything. I have just been not able to get out of bed or do any work this intier term. People keep saying that I'm failing because I spend too much time with my friends but these people are the only thing keeping me alive anymore! But I'm scared these friends hate me, that they're sick of me. We had planned to dorm together next year but all of them applied for singles and not tell me, leaving me stuck in a 4 bedroom unit with 3 strangers. The only reason I can think is just that they don't want to have to be around me, these people all knew eachother before I met them so I'm the outlier in the group (aka disposable).
I've been trying to get better I really have and this is my support network and I just can.
Don't worry it gets worse too. When doing academic placement at the hospital one of my Patience was suicidal and they ended up asking me if I wanted to end my own life and I had to leave and cry in the corner for like 10 minutes straight. And now because of that my teacher is failing me, and the only way to reverse that requires me having to tell the entire faculty why I had that reaction which will not be fun.
And to top it all of I will be going make home for the summer to my family. God help me.
Its the start of exam time for me and wouldn't you know I'm failing everything. I have just been not able to get out of bed or do any work this intier term. People keep saying that I'm failing because I spend too much time with my friends but these people are the only thing keeping me alive anymore! But I'm scared these friends hate me, that they're sick of me. We had planned to dorm together next year but all of them applied for singles and not tell me, leaving me stuck in a 4 bedroom unit with 3 strangers. The only reason I can think is just that they don't want to have to be around me, these people all knew eachother before I met them so I'm the outlier in the group (aka disposable).
I've been trying to get better I really have and this is my support network and I just can.
Don't worry it gets worse too. When doing academic placement at the hospital one of my Patience was suicidal and they ended up asking me if I wanted to end my own life and I had to leave and cry in the corner for like 10 minutes straight. And now because of that my teacher is failing me, and the only way to reverse that requires me having to tell the entire faculty why I had that reaction which will not be fun.
And to top it all of I will be going make home for the summer to my family. God help me.
