Story It’s almost time (goodbye thread)

[Dead beat dad]

Don't think I can go though with it I'm so ashamed at myself still got one more night at the hotel

Sounds like you're in a very dark place brother and it seems you're feeling under pressure.
This is your life, if this isn't the time for you then that is okay.
If you need time to reflect and collect yourself, do some healing or what ever brings you peace in what every form then there is no judgement here.
I wish you luck and peace brother, sincerely matter what your choices are.
DBD

 

[DeadlyLiving]

It needed to be today it's been 1 year since I lost my dad today I have everything ready going to have a drink smoke and a joint and see how I feel

You shouldn't pressure yourself into it. If you don't feel ready yet that's the way it is. I wish you good luck on your way though x

 

[AnnihilatedAnna]

It needed to be today it's been 1 year since I lost my dad today I have everything ready going to have a drink smoke and a joint and see how I feel

If you are not ready maybe you should postpone?

 

[FauxEmotions]

Remember, no need rush, you have your whole life to die :)

 

[Toenditall]

I've been ready for the last couple of months but wanted to wait till today to do it this is first time I havnt been able to go though with my plans stupid si kicking in like a bitch

 

[LivingLies]

I've been ready for the last couple of months but wanted to wait till today to do it this is first time I havnt been able to go though with my plans stupid si kicking in like a bitch

Please don't beat your self up. I'm in the same boat with SI.

 

[FauxEmotions]

SI are resilient little bastards.

 

[Charlotte The Carrot]

I've been ready for the last couple of months but wanted to wait till today to do it this is first time I havnt been able to go though with my plans stupid si kicking in like a bitch

Please postpone if you're not ready. There is no shame. You can always book it again, be that in a week or a month but if today isn't right that Is alright.

I understand you'll be in a lot of pain and want to die but it's alright to take the time you need to rethink the Situation. Good cookie <3

Please don't beat your self up. I'm in the same boat with SI.

What is SI?

 

[LivingLies]

Please postpone if you're not ready. There is no shame. You can always book it again, be that in a week or a month but if today isn't right that Is alright.

I understand you'll be in a lot of pain and want to die but it's alright to take the time you need to rethink the Situation. Good cookie <3

What is SI?

Survival instinct

 

[CrappyMJ]

Please postpone if you're not ready. There is no shame. You can always book it again, be that in a week or a month but if today isn't right that Is alright.

I understand you'll be in a lot of pain and want to die but it's alright to take the time you need to rethink the Situation. Good cookie <3

What is SI?

Survival instinct.
Music really helped me overcome it. Try it maybe it helps.

 

[Marawa]

SI=survival instinct
I've been going through the same thing for about 2 weeks with partial. I realize no one is coming with me, this is my life & no matter what anyone thinks or feels about my actions is not my business. its only when I can really let go of all hopes desires for earthly things will I do this.

 

[Toenditall]

I think I might go though with it after all I've drank a bottle of vodka and had a bit of 1.4 b and just taken my meto then mixed up my sn so I think this might be it for me guys rope is all set too I hope this is it for me

 

[EddieAllenPoe]

If it makes you feel any better @Toenditall, anybody you can talk to on this website is a suicide failure. I think about it a lot but I'm still completely failing to catch that bus.

 

[Charlotte The Carrot]

I think I might go though with it after all I've drank a bottle of vodka and had a bit of 1.4 b and just taken my meto then mixed up my sn so I think this might be it for me guys rope is all set too I hope this is it for me

After a bottle of vodka you risk throwing up, I recommend being less drunk for this. Meto isn't gonna work against such qauntity of alcohol

 

[LivingLies]

I think I might go though with it after all I've drank a bottle of vodka and had a bit of 1.4 b and just taken my meto then mixed up my sn so I think this might be it for me guys rope is all set too I hope this is it for me

I hope you find peace

 

[Toenditall]

If it makes you feel any better @Toenditall, anybody you can talk to on this website is a suicide failure. I think about it a lot but I'm still completely failing to catch that bus.

I've failed a few times before I planed this out to not fail if I do everything I've planned I will die it's just getting it all done

After a bottle of vodka you risk throwing up, I recommend being less drunk for this. Meto isn't gonna work against such qauntity of alcohol

A bottle is nothing for me I can normally drink 2litres + before getting drunk

 

[Charlotte The Carrot]

I've failed a few times before I planed this out to not fail if I do everything I've planned I will die it's just getting it all done

A bottle is nothing for me I can normally drink 2litres + before getting drunk

I recommend being in a clear head to make sure you're making a rational decision.

 

[EddieAllenPoe]

@Toenditall People on this website may think I'm delusional but let me tell you about my multiverse theory. Could you ever live in a universe where you were consciously aware of being dead? No. So could you ever live in a universe where you will be a suicide success? No. But you do know there are people "out there" who successfully committed suicide, right? So you assume you can die because they died. But what if all those people "out there" kept on living in another universe that branched away from yours? Death may be an illusion. Could you prove that? No. But you also can't disprove it. So suicide may be a stupid skill to learn.

 

[FauxEmotions]

@Toenditall People on this website may think I'm delusional but let me tell you about my multiverse theory. Could you ever live in a universe where you were consciously aware of being dead? No. So could you ever live in a universe where you will be a suicide success? No. But you do know there are people "out there" who successfully committed suicide, right? So you assume you can die because they died. But what if all those people "out there" kept on living in another universe that branched away from yours? Death may be an illusion. Could you prove that? No. But you also can't disprove it. So suicide may be a stupid skill to learn.

I don't think you're crazy. I think that would be way more beautiful than the way the world seems now...or at least what we are taught. However, i just wish I had the strength/courage it took to get through the wormhole to another universe.

 

[Dead beat dad]

I've been ready for the last couple of months but wanted to wait till today to do it this is first time I havnt been able to go though with my plans stupid si kicking in like a bitch

Brother if it's not your time then don't cause

I've failed a few times before I planed this out to not fail if I do everything I've planned I will die it's just getting it all done

A bottle is nothing for me I can normally drink 2litres + before getting drunk

Good luck friend. I hope you are able to find your peace and you feel no pain, no matter what the event of the next few minutes, hours or days happen to be.
DBD

 

[EddieAllenPoe]

I don't think you're crazy. I think that would be way more beautiful than the way the world seems now...or at least what we are taught. However, i just wish I had the strength/courage it took to get through the wormhole to another universe.

If I were honest, I really just want to know how to beat the odds and win the lottery. How do I do that? I just want to be a billionaire... for once. I'd settle for millionaire. Actually, there are homeless people who have higher net worths than mine. How can I just live a comfortable life without spending all my time working as a slave? Life is full of bullshit.

 

[FauxEmotions]

If I were honest, I really just want to know how to beat the odds and win the lottery. How do I do that? I just want to be a billionaire... for once. I'd settle for millionaire. Actually, there are homeless people who have higher net worths than mine. How can I just live a comfortable life without spending all my time working as a slave? Life is full of bullshit.

I hear that! Perhaps pursuing an art form for work? I know that's a long, painful way to earn money in its own right but I'd imagine the pay off in the end is worth it? Idk, I haven't even a toe bone that is creative.

 

[EddieAllenPoe]

I hear that! Perhaps pursuing an art form for work? I know that's a long, painful way to earn money in its own right but I'd imagine the pay off in the end is worth it? Idk, I haven't even a toe bone that is creative.

Yeah, me either. I appreciate good art but I'm not an artist. I haven't really found my life skill. So far it seems to be obsession with religion, psychology, philosophy, and suicide. If an OCD-like love of useless subjects were only worth more than they actually are I'd be set.

 

[Toenditall]

1.4b has been taken just the sn to go

 

[Cookiedough8956]

Wish you the best of luck..

 

[FauxEmotions]

Yeah, me either. I appreciate good art but I'm not an artist. I haven't really found my life skill. So far it seems to be obsession with religion, psychology, philosophy, and suicide. If an OCD-like love of useless subjects were only worth more than they actually are I'd be set.

Perhaps a podcast?

 

[EddieAllenPoe]

@Toenditall Mmm, boy. Sounds like fun. I wish you peace and a better life. If we don't hear from you again, don't forget my multiverse theory.

Perhaps a podcast?

@FauxEmotions I love listening to podcasts. I feel like I lack a certain pizazz, or something, that would attract enough attention to successfully do a podcast. If I thought I could attract a large enough audience because I was producing something I loved, I'd be all over that. Because all you would need next is to integrate advertising to monetize it. I am just honestly not "that cool" or something to pull this off.

 

[FauxEmotions]

@Toenditall Mmm, boy. Sounds like fun. I wish you peace and a better life. If we don't hear from you again, don't forget my multiverse theory.


@FauxEmotions I love listening to podcasts. I feel like I lack a certain pizazz, or something, that would attract enough attention to successfully do a podcast. If I thought I could attract a large enough audience because I was producing something I loved, I'd be all over that. Because all you would need next is to integrate advertising to monetize it. I am just honestly not "that cool" or something to pull this off.

The beauty I found of podcasting is, it's just subjects/topics. There's is always an audience, it's just may take longer to find them/they find you.

 

[EddieAllenPoe]

The beauty I found of podcasting is, it's just subjects/topics. There's is always an audience, it's just may take longer to find them/they find you.

Well, you know... It's kind of like playing the lottery. Most people will lose most of the time because of the odds. But you are guaranteed to never win if you never play.
Unfortunately, I don't play the lottery and I'll probably never start a podcast. I admire those that do and who win though.

 

[HappyEnding]

Good luck. I hope to see you on the other side someday.