It really sucks that we have to do a ton of research to find a suitable method

[Suicideisnirvana]

While being suicidal gives you apathy.

I try to fight my apathy with meditation/deadlines/giving myself things to do for the day and doing them to worn on my resolve/putting myself in risky situations as in inviting a girl or something so that rejection may act as a booster.

Now i'm looking for a bitcoin seller and it's hard to find that in Morocco, it's illegal to buy it so credit cards won't allow the purchase of bitcoins.

It really sucks that we have no failsafe easy method of suicide, waiting even 24h is hell for me, but still i have to not rush things to guarantee a successfull suicide.

 

[sadak_the_wanderer]

I don't know what to tell you. Carbon monoxide used to be easy; coal gas could run right into the house. Pop your head in the oven and done. They put up fences around Mount Mihara in Japan, once upon a time you could just walk up and jump into the volcano. GFI circuits prevent easy electrocution since the 1970s. Laudanum could be bought at the corner store over a hundred years ago. Even barbiturates were easily obtained in the three and four decades ago. The world has safety rails around it now. We are forced to behave like spies, ferreting out secrets and conspiring for destruction, if only of our own lives.

 

[creatureoflight]

The body is very hardy and not easy to destroy

 

[Suicideisnirvana]

The body is very hardy and not easy to destroy

That's not what i'm talking about, there is a biiig difference between having a gun or N and finding it hard to CTB because of survival mechanisms, and not even having reliable means to begin with. I'm in the latter category, trying to buy N now and then i'll see for myself how hard it is to "destroy the body", till then it's mostly lack of means.