it is back

[meltskelt]

I have been feelig more and more depressed lately even tough I stareted therapy...
Today I woke up worse, maybe the sickness of my body is also a good reason for me to be so lame :/ College is killing me, college breaks my bones and say it's my own fault.
Tomorrow I'm going to the psychiatrist in hope of getting better, but for what? Why am I trying? I just need to lose a bunch of weigth and die alone, in my room. I cant take human interaction anymore. Let the year end already.

 

[Jadeith]

Tomorrow I'm going to the psychiatrist in hope of getting better, but for what? Why am I trying?

The question contains the answer. Hope. You still have it. It dies last or so they say and something tells me you shouldn't attempt killing it. If it dies, it dies but don't help it in doing so. Might be deadly for you too.