Venting it hurts

[spiders.in.my.head]

it physically hurts how awful my mental state is. my chest feels like it's caving in under pressure, but i know there's nothing actually wrong with it. how am i supposed to fix an aliment if the root cause is "big dumb brain wonky".
the depression is getting worse by the day. i barely have any energy. i manage to stay awake for maybe 3-4h at a time, before going back to bed.
i cant keep living like this.