It gets emptier and emptier

[Antibiotic]

I feel so empty and I have for a long time and it hurts the people around me, personally I never cared even if it was ruining my life I don't care about my life and I don't care if it ruins it but now it's ruining others and I can't have that but even when I feel happy for a moment it just gets emptier and I can't bear making the people I love sad with everything I feel so I consider maybe it's best I'm not here, I make them sad constantly when I'm around but if I died they'd be sad for a month or so and it'd be gone so maybe that's my best option I would rather them sad for a short while then every time I'm around
what do I do

 

[Judah]

Maybe opening up to the people around you can help a little, although only some will be able to understand and empathize with the situation, if you want people to be able to understand you a little more.

 

[Antibiotic]

Maybe opening up to the people around you can help a little, although only some will be able to understand and empathize with the situation, if you want people to be able to understand you a little more.

I tried that, my direct family yelled at me called me pathetic well getting upset themselves and my dearest friends started to cry Im left with no choice