It feels like there is no viable method and it makes me feel trapped

[Red_sleep]

The only method I could ever see myself doing is N. But I know it's very unrealistic I will ever get my hands on it. It makes me feel so trapped. I don't wanna be here.

I suffer every day and I know deep inside I will never get better. I also know that I'm too afraid to actually try to commit. Every drug besides N I think is too risky. It's a huge gamble since you could wake up having a far worse life than before. A gun is nearly impossible for me to get. The idea of hanging just seems awful.

Besides I have no motivation to plan any of this. I always use the thought of suicide to comfort myself because my reality is so horrible. I'm just stuck here existing only in pain.

 

[アホペンギン]

I only know that you can get N in Mexico, but in person. What i would do is use SN, but before drinking it i would go in a bathtub full of water so if the SN doesn't kill me the drowning will. SN is also widely available in most countries so i think its your best bet. I mean, like you said, you're worried about failing other methods but if you're not brave enough to do anything else SN will be the best for you.

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[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it's so dreadful and tiring feeling trapped here, in my case how risky and inaccessible suicide is, is also why I'm stuck here. I find it so horrible how we cannot just leave this world in peace in a guaranteed way, it's inhumane how suicide is purposely made so difficult.

 

[Sweet Tart]

I'm starting to think the lack of reliable, humane, and inexpensive options is going to lead me to use a more violent method than I would choose if I had better choices.

 

[shantyizlit]

I've found decent enough evidence of a Heroin OD being lethal that I've chosen to go that way. I can't do anything brutal like jumping or hanging that would be literally impossible for me. And I would also just be stuck in this world fantasizing about a suicide that would never happen. Maybe at some point I would've been pushed to the edge and had the courage to jump.. or maybe I got fed up and finally decided to study enough about Inert Gasses to make that method viable, but it still takes balls to put on the mask and shit.
It's just that my research has led me to believe that the method I'm planning with heroin is going to do it, I just can't be 100% sure like I would be with Nembutal, as that is being used reliably in different places in the world, and is backed up by a lot of trials.
I would feel miserable not having this method.

 

[CW36]

No pain no gain I'm afraid. That's the harsh reality of ending it. There are surefire methods available to every person in every country, you just have to choose the least worst option.

 

[glendaaa]

I know how u feel. I was so sure of sn until I just happened upon sn failure posts today. It looks like some ppl bought nitrAte when it was advertised as nitrIte. Now I'm worried mine is bad because it's from the us. And I don't hear anyone talking abt us brands.

 

[martinso67]

I understand your struggle. I am also obsessed with wanting N as the only way to CTB.
After watching a video of a women taking N and dying peacefully in company of her family. Also I like/prefer drinking medication instead of taking pills. So they made the perfect medication.

 

[020x]

Nembutal (pentobarbital) is the best ctb method that will make it a peaceful ending for every person, it's even legally used in some countries as euthanasia for terminally ill people.

While it lasted as official medication for people with insomnia back then, it later got replaced by benzodiazepines (which are way less lethal) when they realised what pentobarbital can do when taken in high dose. That's why governments took strong control over that drug and made it impossible for a normal person to access it. You can get it illegally, by travelling to Mexico and finding a dealer, but that's not an option for most of us and no one wants to do all of that or can't (unable to) because it's pretty risky to even try it. So it's pretty sad :/. Tho some users did travel there to commit using that method, but those were a very few.

Second best method in my opinion would be ctbing using a firearm. Not only (if done right) will it make it an instant death if you shoot yourself in the brainstem from inside of your mouth, you won't even realise that you died, that's how instant it would be. Even if you're scared that you might still be conscious, you can lean backwards towards a bathtub with water or a river somewhere outside so that after you shoot, you will fall in the water which will make you drown and make this method a guaranteed succes.

3rd best method in my opinion would be any trick to make yourself unconscious and that you would fall in the water and drown, you won't feel anything cause you're unconscious, which makes this peaceful. So this is ideal in my opinion if you know how to make yourself pass out pretty quickly.

Each method, if not painful, will be scary at least. Existence will make you suffer until your last breath. Dying is also suffering. Unfortunately, most of us will probably have to experience it in a worse way than it could've been if this world would've been more understanding to us.