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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
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My reasonable bucket list is done. I had another one but it's a fantasy at this point. I don't know why I can't just get dressed, buy my favorite meal, and drive to the bridge I picked out.
 
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leftdreaming

leftdreaming

I should’ve been a house cat
Apr 28, 2023
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The only thing on my bucket list is to ctb as painlessly as possible. Easier said than done, though.
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Pray for my release
Jul 23, 2022
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I don't care about experiencing anything more. I just want to be done.
 
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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,278
I don't care about experiencing anything more. I just want to be done.
I think that means we've reached enlightenment. We have finally reached the point of not desiring anything. I wonder if this is common among those who ctb or do many still want to do things but the pain is too great?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,385
I always thought bucket lists were for people who actually wanted to exist in this replusive world, not those who have enough awareness to recognise that existence isn't worth enduring and just wish to permanently cease existing. I see no benefit to being conscious and aware, existence could never be a desirable state no matter what, existence is only unnecessary suffering. But I think that if someone was close to leaving this world then everything other than preparing the suicide plan would feel meaningless and futile as death erases everything for us.
 
Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,278
I always thought bucket lists were for people who actually wanted to exist in this replusive world, not those who have enough awareness to recognise that existence isn't worth enduring and just wish to permanently cease existing. I see no benefit to being conscious and aware, existence could never be a desirable state no matter what, existence is only unnecessary suffering. But I think that if someone was close to leaving this world then everything other than preparing the suicide plan would feel meaningless and futile as death erases everything for us.
If you got cancer, would you try and get euthanasia if it's legal there?
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,385
If you got cancer, would you try and get euthanasia if it's legal there?
Of course I would, but I'm from England where people with terminal illnesses cannot even be euthanised, it's such an anti-suicide country.
 

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