Since I can swim I've been considering weights, but I've read a post about a girl who did that but her SI made her swim to the top. I feel as if I'm going to just have to try to get a job again so I can afford some sort or sedatives so I'll be unconscious while drowning since knowing how to swim makes drowning that much more difficult.
I've been looking into the drowning method myself, but in a bathtub and in regular tempatures. Still trying to figure out my own problems with it.
Ideally, you'd need prescription meds like zolpidem or zopiclone. That would pretty much guarantee your success, since we're talking about a big body of water. Otherwise, even getting hammered could potentially do the job, but it's riskier. The meds mentioned are strong. Other stuff (like alcohol and OTC medicine) not so much. They also reduce your ability to make subconscious decisions and move and affect other cognitive functions quite well. I have a high mg of Zolpidem, prescription, and am currently experimenting to find out how my body reacts when I'm unconscious from them. I'm planning to film myself sleeping without, with 1 pill, and with 3 pills (more than that I might sleepwalk). SI is still a concern, after all.
Either way, a good sedative is crucial. Drowning sounds like the mother of all horrors. You could add weights to the mix, except I wouldn't use that to weigh myself down so to disable my ability to rescue myself but to make sure my body doesn't float up to the surface and I breathe oxygen. Some people's bodies rotate in the water so that their face is facing down, depending on one's fat distribution, so they don't need to go as far as weighing themselves down. I've done experiments in my bathtub and I do rotate. Some people also float while others don't, regardless of whether or not they know how to swim. That's another thing to consider and maybe test yourself. Because even if you do use a strong sedative you might still stay surfaced with your head above water.
Getting back to the meds, you don't need a good job to afford any of that. I don't know what your situation is but I'd try getting one of those prescription meds from your doc. Claim you have trouble sleeping, make some shit up. These are not easy to get, though, especially if people are aware you're suicidal, but they're really worth a shot. If you can't get your hands on something like that, you might also consider trying the SWB method, but keep in mind that most people seem to fail at it. Most people are not Olympic-level swimmers.
Lastly, FYI, you'd need 10 minutes in total, give or take, of cut off oxygen to drown. So make real sure nobody finds and rescues you before that or you'll end up with brain damage. Don't settle on people not seeing you jump in. In addition, since freezing to death takes longer you'll drown before you even get the chance to. I'm not sure freezing water would be required for this method at all, if that's part of your plan. Don't make it more uncomfortable than it should be.
