Venting Is this why people with BPD have a higher suicide risk

[toxicjester]

I feel everything so so much

All my pain

My trauma

So much agony

But when I love her

I Love Her

She's beautiful
She's perfect
She's kind and ambitious and her eyes have the whole world in them

And she never saw any of that

Cariño

Your beauty never
Ever
Scared me

Mi cielo

BPD makes me feel so much and everything

I have to smoke or drink to deal with the pain

And I will do it until I stop feeling
Feeling my emotions
And until I stop feeling the world
Until I stop being alive
Because this world will take me

And it won't be poetic or majestic

It'll be ugly and painful and visceral

Too much
Like my emotions

How it's meant to begin
And how it's meant to end