Venting is this even depression even more?

[nopurposeinanything]

Literally all I feel isnt even sadness anymore—just...like there's a void. When im with my freinds its like I put on an act—though I am happy with them, it still is an act. Once im alone, its like...there's nothing to be happy or sad about. Just meh? Over the past few days I've been growing a lot more irritable with everyone, because I just want to be left alone. I cant cry at all. No matter how much I want to, nothing will ever come out unless I try my hardest. I'd rather be sad more than whatever the hell im feeling right now.

 

[SanagiMezamete]

It sounds like depression to me. It doesn't always present the same way, and doesn't always mean sadness. Feeling empty and apathetic is very common among the depressed. As is struggling to cry. Best wishes.

 

[Higurashi415]

It absolutely sounds like depression as it can manifest as an existential void more than plain sadness in some individuals. I don't cry when I'm depressed, because I can't bring myself to care anymore. In fact, I believe that (for me) the peak of my suicidality never coincides with the peak of a depressive phase, because I care so little about me when I'm that depressed that I don't even see the point in killing myself, does this make sense?

Anyways I don't want to derail your thread. I know what you mean, it sounds like depression and if it helps it's not uncommon to feel that way when depressed. For regular people this doesn't happen much, if ever, so it's very hard to explain to a normal person. Look up anhedonia

 

[Sphinxi]

You are feeling anhedonic, which is a common symptom of depression. It means that you don't really feel pleasure, and go emotionally numb. In my experience, it is far worse than being sad. What has helped me get out of it was eating, doing erands, cleaning, and then like. It normally took a few days to weeks for the anhedonia to go away. Good luck, it will pass eventually.

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

You are feeling anhedonic, which is a common symptom of depression. It means that you don't really feel pleasure, and go emotionally numb. In my experience, it is far worse than being sad. What has helped me get out of it was eating, doing erands, cleaning, and then like. It normally took a few days to weeks for the anhedonia to go away. Good luck, it will pass eventually.

yeah, anhedonia sucks