Help Is this an eating disorder, or a developing one?

[lovelulu]

For my whole life, ive been pretty skinny—not deathly skinny, but skinny enough. I always got compliments about it from my friends, saying how they wanted my body so bad. Now, thats been the only thing ive truly liked about myself. At one point, I eventually gained about 5 pounds, and I didnt necessarily like that. After being told im skinny and that my weight was low all my life, gaining weight was a fear of mine, that I would lose the one thing i liked about myself. Now recently, I went back down 5 pounds, going back to my original weight. At that point, I wasn't doing anything intentionally to lose weight, I just naturally lost it from my poor eating habits. My mom even said I was looking a bit skinner, then I told her I lose 5 pounds. After that, my parents have started making me eat better and have a better diet so I can get back those 5 pounds. Hearing that, I got really pissed. I felt like they were trying to make me fatter. So now back in the present, ive just been lying to them and saying ive been eating good. In reality, I've been starving myself. I've lost a few more pounds which is good, but my goal is to get below 100 Ib..
The thing is about this is that im not necessarily that worried about how my body itself looks, but rather im worried about the numbers. I've started to weigh myself constantly everyday. I've considered purging whenever I got hungry enough and ate something, but im well aware of the long term consequences of that. I'd rather not my teeth start rotting. Instead of that, ive just been walking it off, as I walk my dogs everyday. Now, I dont really know if this really could be classified as an eating disorder. Im not sure.

 

[mistake22]

it sounds like a body image issue that could potentially lead to a eating disorder. its okay to ask for help, your parents seems supportive. good things can take time to come into effect so be patient..

 

[Mr.Ruben]

a question you could ask yourself is from what point you'd consider someone overweight or fat?
Of course a Dietitian would have a better eye than us, I personally think it could be a involving one, but as someone who forgets to eat, skinny for my height, and having a good friend that is in boxing, I feel a small importance to have weight, good weight, this from eating good food and some light training, I still miss meals.

 

[auti]

This sounds like me early in my ed. Could definitely snowball, but at this point you might qualify for an osfed dx (I've got this too)

 

[pieceoffox]

I feel something similar too. I'm used to my weight staying around 47 kg. I panic when I see it go up on the scale, and I also think about throwing up every time after eating. Every time I eat, I wonder if I've had too much for the day. I don't know how to solve this or what it is, but I hope everything gets better for you

 

[Braindead Girl]

I'm glad I have a medical condition that can sorta just allow me to vomit on command whenever I feel like. Like I know it's bad to weigh as little as I do but I just honestly don't care I'm so close to my target weight

 

[revivals]

this definitely sounds like early disordered eating behaviors. eating disorders are almost always centered around issues with control, others perception of you, and self harm/punishment. if these are existing difficulties you have, i would be very very careful! eating disorders take a truly terrible toll on the body... they are also very competitive, i would try and stay away from eating disorder related stories and topics if youre afraid of developing one.