Is there ever a wrong reason to be suicidal?

[Sleeper System]

My extreme phases of suicidal ideation come from what is more commonly know as transitional depression. Basically, every time a big change has the potential to occur in my life, I simply over think the situation and filter the outcomes through the worse case scenarios and simply just want to die rather than deal with anything that disrupts my comfort zone. It's a major reason why I have next to no ambition as far as my job or doing anything meaningful in life.

Aside from those extreme situations, I generally have a black cloud over my head. Sure, I have the ability to convey an artifical positive persona as I'm sure many of you have learned to exhibit as to not draw attention to your⅖ inner suffering... but my inner monolog is always the same. What is the point? Why am I putting myself through this? Do I really care about anything but myself? Should I end everything? Am I coward? Do I care what others will say? Just constant noise that doesn't turn off unless I'm asleep.

Something just happened at my job that may seems very trivial to anyone looking at the issue without my prospective but to me is was a complete slap in the face and is now going to effect my daily routine that helps me curb my thoughts of ctb. I want to lash out and put my foot down and I still might but I just feel this leading into that extreme depressive phase I mentioned and I dread those feelings of helplessness.

So I wonder... is there ever a wrong reason to want to die? Sometimes something will slip out of my hand and while bending down to pick it up like some automatic program action... I will think I just want to die. And I really from the bottom of my heart mean that shit. Just because I dropped something. Even accidently bitting my inner cheek is enough to say fuck this I want to hang myself.

At what point is it just an overreaction because I'm so miserable every day.
Living sucks. Dying seems painful. No existence seems boring. Ugh.

 

[hopelessdreams]

i don't think there's a wrong reason to be suicidal. did you know that most of the suicides happen impulsively? like someone will just go about their day, something happens, and within five minutes they ctb. i think it's due to an overwhelming flow of emotions that has been bottled up for a long time. the littlest thing will make you so angry or sad that you just want to end it all right then and there.

 

[Sleeper System]

i don't think there's a wrong reason to be suicidal. did you know that most of the suicides happen impulsively? like someone will just go about their day, something happens, and within five minutes they ctb. i think it's due to an overwhelming flow of emotions that has been bottled up for a long time. the littlest thing will make you so angry or sad that you just want to end it all right then and there.

I heard that happens alot with business men and people with high pressure jobs. Also, with people who have had an extreme traumatic experience.
I exist in none of those catagories. It does make me curious to know some regular people who just randomly did it.

 

[TrynaChingMyself]

I wouldnt call it an overreaction. If you've got a whole load of bad shit that's happened in life then sometimes all it takes is accidentally dropping an object to kick start suicidal thoughts. Kind of like a "last straw" situation.

I feel like this most of the time when minor inconveniences happen. Cant help but wonder why should I even bother dealing with stuff anymore, even if it's a small spill etc.

As for whether theres wrong reasons to die, I'm not really sure. But your feelings are valid and there's probably a reason you're reacting the way you are. Life has a fun way of piling shit up against you until you break.

 

[death137]

i don't think there's a wrong reason to be suicidal. did you know that most of the suicides happen impulsively? like someone will just go about their day, something happens, and within five minutes they ctb. i think it's due to an overwhelming flow of emotions that has been bottled up for a long time. the littlest thing will make you so angry or sad that you just want to end it all right then and there.

I agree there isn't a wrong reason to be suicidal but I don't think most suicides happen impulsively.

 

[hopelessdreams]

I heard that happens alot with business men and people with high pressure jobs. Also, with people who have had an extreme traumatic experience.
I exist in none of those catagories. It does make me curious to know some regular people who just randomly did it.

i bet there are "normal" people whom have done that. even if you don't fall in one of those categories, emotions are emotions. they're valid either way.

I agree there isn't a wrong reason to be suicidal but I don't think most suicides happen impulsively.

impulsively meaning: having the means to kill yourself but doing it without a plan or date. and it's a statistic. 64% of suicide attempts happen impulsively, whereas only 13,8% were planned.

you can find the data here:

Impulsive vs. Planned Suicide Attempts | Psychiatrist.com

Read 6 articles on suicide and whether most attempts are impulsive or planned , as well as how clinician can take this into account when evaluating patients.

www.psychiatrist.com

 

[FuneralCry]

No, suicide does not even need a reason. We all have the right to exit this world at a time of our own choosing and we have no obligations to stay alive as we did not ask to exist. Life is completely meaningless after all and we will all die eventually someday, so suicide can never be wrong. No one should be forced to live against their wishes. We also all have different limits as to what we can cope with in life, things that may seem insignificant to one person can ruin the life of someone else.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I recognise so much of what you have said in myself. I'm always catastophizing. Most especially when it involves a change and even more so- if it involves anything social.

Once heard in a TV drama that our mental well being depends on our ability to cope with external pressures. If our inner strength is diminished for any reason, the most insignificant (seeming) thing can really affect us.

On the one hand, I do sort of understand that people with absolutely debilitating health or mental afflictions could feel frustrated with someone like me- who has neither diagnosed. On the other though- I would say- no one knows what it's like to live another person's life.

Plus, so much of our experience seems to be influenced by comparison. Being ill makes you appreciate being well. Being sad makes you appreciate feeling happy. I think you can just get lost in long term depression where it's difficult to feel anything other than sad and hopeless.

I personally feel we all have the 'right' to feel what we feel. Depending on how potentially harmful those thoughts are informs the reaction. While I obviously think violent thoughts towards others need to be repressed, I believe we ought to have autonomy over our own lives.

In an ideal world, it would be great if we could overcome our negative or suicidal thoughts but I still think we all have the 'right' to have them- regardless of our circumstances.

I guess if telling yourself you are overreacting when you wish to die at every other minor thing helps- then that might help with recovery I suppose. Still, I'm likely to carry on in the same fashion regardless. I always hope I'll die before I have to fill in the next tax return and there are SO many things in life I just don't want to deal with anymore.

Suspect for the most of us on here, death seems preferable to life- so I don't find it unusual that those thoughts keep popping in.

 

[callme]

Sure is - hair loss

 

[WorthlessTrash]

There is no wrong reason to commit suicide, just like there is no wrong reason in wanting to live. It is all up to the individual's choice.

 

[NobodyKnowsMe]

I do think that killing yourself only to try making others suffer is not a good reason. The "I'll show them, I'll kill myself and then they will be so sorry they treated me this way" thing.

 

[Seeking_Peace]

I'd say over a person/break up yes. That person is going to move on why should I give them power over my life? I've been in good and bad relationships. However, if someone only had that one love I could see the huge amount of pain on them for ctb.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

No, I don't think people can help feeling suicidal. I think it's wrong that people don't receive more support.

 

[jimmy7754]

I hope non existence isn't boring

 

[hellispink]

Some people do it because they engaged in a fight or argued with someone and they do it because of anger and impulsively. & some do it thinking it's a vengeance towards someone. However, the truth is no one cares while being here, less will they care after the funeral is over like they will continue being happy about what they did after. So for me deciding to go must be a logical and well thought decision.

 

[rex_deceptorum]

Sure is - hair loss

And that's only because we have hairpieces, transplants and - hopefully soon- hair cloning!