Is there a way I can stop being a little bitch and end it already? I am so sick of this life shit.

[VoidedExistence]

I have fucking wanted to end it for years now. But I never have been able to even make an attempt. I mean, that's just me in general. I have not been able to make any attempt to do anything in my life, so naturally suicide falls in that as well. But fucking damn it, I just wanna be able to gather all the guts I have just for once to go through with this, and I would never have to deal with this life bullshit. I am so tired, sad, angry, frustrated for having to deal with this life bullshit for years when all I have ever wanted to not live. Why I fucking suck at everything, why life is in shambles, is because I don't want to fucking live. I can't fucking life.

 

[Corovaner]

To overcome SI your suffering have to become unbearable, fear of existence must be stronger than fear of death. Or you need certain substances, that's it. Brutal truth of suicidal people's life.

 

[CarbonBased]

I think there's more to it than that. Personally, I'm not suffering (not any more than an average person anyway), and I don't fear death. I've attempted before, so I know it's not just words either

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I think there's more to it than that. Personally, I'm not suffering (not any more than an average person anyway), and I don't fear death. I've attempted before, so I know it's not just words either

can you explain more what u mean?

 

[CarbonBased]

@pthnrdnojvsc

I'm just saying that not all suicidal people want to die because of some unbearable suffering that they either constantly endure or would have endured had they not exited. I know because I'm one of those people. My personal convictions about life and the human condition just make me not want to participate in this whole thing. I don't view death as 'escaping' from suffering. I just see it as declining an offer I'm not particularly interested in. And there's nothing scary about that, is there?

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

To overcome SI your suffering have to become unbearable, fear of existence must be stronger than fear of death. Or you need certain substances, that's it. Brutal truth of suicidal people's life.

Its tough because my suffering is unbearable. But my fear of the unknown is stronger than my fear of death. Probably nothing happens after death but no way to be absolutely sure. And then I think if you end your life prematurely, could there really be something worse than I already live with? With my bad anxiety, I cannot tolerate uncertainty. I believe that is how I have held on so long:(