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close your eyes and you'll leave this dream
Jul 14, 2025
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thinking thinking.

it feels like my first attempt was so agile and momentary and i wasn't afraid of everything. i was done.
now i am much more worried about survival, afraid that someone might stop me and i'll just ruin my life.
i haven't thought like this before. i wonder what it is that happened that made me feel really stressed.
my current method is definitely easier than my previous one, too.

does planning out each and every step make it worse because i'm anxious someone will intervene?

has anyone faced similar struggle?
 
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Worndown

Worndown

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Mar 21, 2019
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Planning makes everything better.
If applicable, practice is good too.
Get comfortable with your method. Know what to do and what NOT to do.
Try to make it routine. That will get you at least half way there without SI or other thoughts slowing you down.
 
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Dejected 55

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May 7, 2025
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I could see it both ways. You could get discouraged if your first attempt fails and find it harder to try again... OR once you overcome that hesitation and fear the first time, you might find it easier to overcome that and try again even if you fail. I think it very much depends on the person.

For me, I think as hard as it will be the first time... if I fail, I can see me having a harder time trying again.
 
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Apr 21, 2025
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I think it just has to do with factors like how do you feel at the time.
 
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