So guys... I did something stupid yesterday (you can judge me if you want). The idea was at first "self-mutilation"... I don't know, my head was and it's bad! I knew I couldn't do it directly so I hoped to do it in stages.
Turns out I tried sodium first, I had some soy sauce, but it didn't stop in my stomach (I'm allergic)... It probably hurt my stomach because it burned the palm of my hand with a drop.
So instead of recovering from that first one (two days later) I simply ate 15 castor bean seeds (to be honest I underestimated that this would make such a heavy reaction, so I expected something in stages... a gradual intoxication). But I believe that the stomach injuries increased the absorption of ricin... Yesterday I had digestive symptoms. hone I look mildly flu, with headache, abdominal pain and dysregulated heart (he wasn't very healthy since covid).
I underestimated too much, really... I can't go to a hospital (because I won't be able to make up a story, I've had allergies for less than a week, I can't make up anything now).
I'm lost!
Turns out I tried sodium first, I had some soy sauce, but it didn't stop in my stomach (I'm allergic)... It probably hurt my stomach because it burned the palm of my hand with a drop.
So instead of recovering from that first one (two days later) I simply ate 15 castor bean seeds (to be honest I underestimated that this would make such a heavy reaction, so I expected something in stages... a gradual intoxication). But I believe that the stomach injuries increased the absorption of ricin... Yesterday I had digestive symptoms. hone I look mildly flu, with headache, abdominal pain and dysregulated heart (he wasn't very healthy since covid).
I underestimated too much, really... I can't go to a hospital (because I won't be able to make up a story, I've had allergies for less than a week, I can't make up anything now).
I'm lost!
