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sorrowfullyliving

Always worried
Sep 2, 2025
57
I've been thinking about doing this method because I already have the items to do it, some rat poison left over after clearing out an infestation. I've heard that CTBing by any poison is generally pretty painful, should I try this method or not?.
 
brokenspirited

brokenspirited

Great Mage
May 20, 2025
577
I wish you the best in finding the relief you seek from your suffering. That method you're asking about is a complete non-method that should never, ever be tried under any circumstances as it leads to more unbearable suffering, risking severe damage and even worse agony. I'm really sorry you have suffered so long nobody deserves this kind of suffering or should have to suffer like this, it's really unfair how this world just forces people to suffer for no reason at all.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,012
ABSOLUTELY NOT! First, most modern rat poisons have emetics in case of accidental ingestion. Meaning you will vomit like crazy if you take it. Rat poison kills by massive internal bleeding. It is slow and extremely painful. DO NOT TRY THIS.
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
4,219
The modern priduct is a blood thinner.

For a 2 ounce mouse or a 1 pound rat, it is a massive dose. They bleed out internally and die.

While this will not be good for you, it will be tough to die from it.
 
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eattwinkiesseejesus

eattwinkiesseejesus

Praying for death to a God that doesn't answer
Jan 18, 2025
130
Please don't, thats a rather painful way to go
 
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Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,644
I'm going to say hard no... I really want to die, like right as I'm typing this sentence if I died before completing it I'd be awesome! But the thought of death by rat poison makes me cringe.
 
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trashisland

trashisland

outsider
Aug 5, 2025
140
I saw a video of a man vomiting a lot of blood after ingesting it. it looks extremely painful and also very slow too, I personally wouldn't
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
No no no no! You'll end up puking blood and in a lot of pain
 
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princexhhn

princexhhn

did i make a mistake?
Sep 26, 2023
474
sounds painful as hell mate, pretty sure you'd just throw it all up too
 
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sorrowfullyliving

Always worried
Sep 2, 2025
57
Thanks for all of your advice, after further research I'm gonna try ligature strangulation, seems really easy and painless to do
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
4,219
Yeah I failed three times. That's why I'm looking for a new method
Sorry to hear you had three attempts.
When you settle on a new method, check it out and see what works and what does not.
On a ligature thread, post your experiences. Add to the pool of knowledge.
 
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