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notanymore99

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Apr 7, 2026
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I have read a lot on this forum, books and studies and I know OD'ing is not recommended, but due to my disability I really have no other way to ctb.

I've managed to get my hands on around 200 x 10 mg ciclobenzaprine pills, 30 x 5 mg clotiazepam pills and a 150 ml (1 mg x ml) risperidone bottle.

By my calculations, it should be enough to stop my heart from beating, I'm just scared that I won't be able to avoid throwing up (although I have been able to avoid it even when I've been really sick). I don't think I can get any anti-nausea meds, so my plan is to lay down and hopefully choke on my own vomit (not the best plan, I know, but the best I've been able to plan after years of research).

I'd love to hear your thoughts, tips, etc.

Have a nice day everyone.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Welcome to SaSu. Sorry life has brought you here.

Unfortunately, it is what it is with medication ODs. No matter what cocktail you have, save for the few listed in the PPH, the answer is always the same. There is no definitive answer anyone can give you.
 
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notanymore99

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Apr 7, 2026
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Welcome to SaSu. Sorry life has brought you here.

Unfortunately, it is what it is with medication ODs. No matter what cocktail you have, save for the few listed in the PPH, the answer is always the same. There is no definitive answer anyone can give you.
Thank you so much for your reply. It looks like I'm a bit screwed lol but I'll keep on researching until I find a proper way, thanks a lot.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Thank you so much for your reply. It looks like I'm a bit screwed lol but I'll keep on researching until I find a proper way, thanks a lot.
If you haven't seen, there is a resources thread pinned at the top of this section.
 
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notanymore99

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Apr 7, 2026
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If you haven't seen, there is a resources thread pinned at the top of this section.
Yeah, I've been reading through those for hours lol I just hope I'll find the proper method to go in peace. Thank you for your help and kind words.
 
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