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Night is usually easiest to digest. I have a hard time leaving the house. It helps knowing at night most everyone else is home and asleep.
But I am full of anxiety abd sadness all the time.
But I am full of anxiety abd sadness all the time.
Oh yeah, the self interrogations. Fun stuff.
I really feel for you. I get it in waves myself. You're not alone, Friend.
I pulled myself out of the darkness for about a year but I'm deep down in it again, worse than ever before
Night time is the worst at filling me with eternal dread. I call it the night sads.
hellispink
poisonous
- May 26, 2022
- 1,229
It depends. Most of the times they are dreadful and horrific just like mornings and afternoons. Sometimes they happen to be easier. Some others they are just nightmares. In other words, all hours of day are very painful.
This is true. But sometimes really difficult to digest that this has became my safe space again. And it'll probably just end with ctb.
I'm so sad and need people, yet no one comes really. I've done my fair share of running people off too. But it sucks when people say they are there but never come at all.
I'm sure I'm just adding salt to the wound since it is almost Valentine's Day
Have you heard of psychogenic death? I feel like I've stepped into every stage of it, been there a lot for a few years, everything but the death part of it
LunaXCBN
The Best Thing (That Never Happened)
- Feb 6, 2023
- 119
Peacefully excruciating. As weird as that sounds.
There's something about pain in complete silence in the dead of night that feels so calm, yet so agonizing.
There's something about pain in complete silence in the dead of night that feels so calm, yet so agonizing.
time2fly
Cowboy
- Dec 20, 2022
- 82
there is no peace for me. i will have an occasional good day + night (aka 24 hours of peace) but besides that all times of day are hell. Mornings are filled with anger, anxiety, and depression. Days are filled with more anger, more anxiety, more depression, plus paranoia, and mild PTSD symptoms. Nights are filled with the same things as the Days but A SHIT TON MORE PARANOIA, PTSD FLASHBACKS, VOICES, PAIN, PHANTOM SENSATIONS, ETC..... IT NEVER ENDS.
LunaXCBN
The Best Thing (That Never Happened)
- Feb 6, 2023
- 119
nyctophilic
Member
- Feb 2, 2023
- 13
it depends. sometimes it's peaceful for me, i listen to music and draw at night. other times, i suffer panic attacks that last hours.
VioletNight
Student
- Jan 24, 2023
- 113
I dread having to go to sleep at night, it's always so much easier to sleep when I'm exhausted and I'm usually not until deep into the morning. Also just laying in bed makes me over focus on things and gives me anxiety.
I love being awake at night though, it's always quiet and easier to focus on the things I need to get done or things I enjoy.
I love being awake at night though, it's always quiet and easier to focus on the things I need to get done or things I enjoy.
releasespieces
Poles are shifting, death is looming
- Jun 26, 2022
- 286
I need it to be dark all the time because of multiple TBIs. I have brain damage and bright lights bother me a lot. I go for walks at night and have blackout curtains during the day. Creature of the night 
Dark mode on everything
Dark mode on everything
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I've always been a night owl. Life slows down at night. There are fewer people shuffling about. I even prefer working the night shift.
Anything to avoid the insanity of the rat race, including congested traffic. Back when I drove for a living, I only drove at night. And even then traffic was crazy downtown on the weekends and during events.
The best part of every day, to me, is once I can shut myself up in a room alone and hopefully with no one bothering me. The thoughts are still there, and heightened because of the lack of distraction, but I still prefer that over existing in society.
Anything to avoid the insanity of the rat race, including congested traffic. Back when I drove for a living, I only drove at night. And even then traffic was crazy downtown on the weekends and during events.
The best part of every day, to me, is once I can shut myself up in a room alone and hopefully with no one bothering me. The thoughts are still there, and heightened because of the lack of distraction, but I still prefer that over existing in society.
Kurushii
Student
- Jan 14, 2023
- 137
Night time is much more peaceful to me, as I hate the daytime. It's too loud, hot, and bright. In the night everything and everyone is quiet so I can actually work on whatever it is I'm working on. I have black out curtains now though, so whilst it's still dark, it's not quite the same as the night. My memory doesn't work too well so I can't remember for sure if night time used to be emotionally painful for me, but if I had to guess I would say it did because at night one is alone, and that loneliness does has an impact.
i like sleeping, i prefer being asleep to being awake, so theres that. but i often cant sleep easily and that sucks. even then tho night is usually easier cuz even if i cant sleep i can still rest and chill
Domika
Member
- Feb 12, 2023
- 12
When I'm laying in bed night times can be such horrific moments of my brain flooding my head with doubt and pain.
But on the other side of the coin walking around at night is oddly tranquil. There's a natural feeling of fear I feel but I've accepted it, and walking through empty streets lit by streelamps or dark woods really just help me calm down. It's the lack of activity that's just... It's just so peaceful and warming...
But on the other side of the coin walking around at night is oddly tranquil. There's a natural feeling of fear I feel but I've accepted it, and walking through empty streets lit by streelamps or dark woods really just help me calm down. It's the lack of activity that's just... It's just so peaceful and warming...
phantomime
Student
- Feb 9, 2023
- 119
Peaceful actually. At night I'm usually home. Most people are too, which means almost no one's around to look at me.
Nights are heavenly for me: it's when I am most peaceful, comfy and cozy and drift off into dreamland. Mornings are the worst. I wake up in terror or my future and what it will likely bring. I try to escape these ruminations through more sleep but only end up waking up to more terror. Eventually I push myself out of the bed and take on the day. Nightlife are the best for me it's the mornings that slay.
EqualibriumWithin
Member
- Feb 7, 2023
- 25
significantly worse, i always tend to just dwell on my own self hatred and stuff out of my control. which just makes me want to die or curl up in a corner, it sucks.
moparman97b
CPTSD, depression, anxiety, lonely
- Feb 11, 2023
- 12
The nighttime is the worst. When it gets dark the sadness grows and I am unable to fight it anymore. I only hope that I was awake long enough during the day to be sleepy enough to fall asleep before the records in my head consume me
RichardFirst
Specialist
- Jan 16, 2021
- 382
For me, the night has always been extremely peaceful. My mind is filled with worries these days, but at least for a short time, I think back to the happier days, and I'm almost able to convince myself that this reality is a nightmare, and that I will soon awaken. Sometimes, it doesn't work, and I lay awake in dread, but more often than not, it is effective.
For me the nights are at best..very peaceful. But as another poster said "Excruciatingly boring". Boring because well..there's not a lot to do, I guess. Videogames get boring after a bit, music starts to suck me in too deep, and Tv just gets a little repulsive. I mostly watch true crime vids on YouTube anyways, shout out to That Chapter! Peaceful because just knowing everyone is asleep soothes me. Knowing I can go use the bathroom, or go to the kitchen, ect..without getting thrown into unwanted conversations, seeing people, and of course being asked "why're you up?". But also because I feel the nighttime is when I'm most vulnerable- which..is so comfortable. Such a comfortable feeling..being vulnerable. When all day you've been keeping your walls up, and wearing masks. Sparking a blunt up and sinking into my own vibes at nighttime are the best. Every now and then I'd hangout with some bros too, and that's always a fun time. I just think the nighttime is the best time, insomnia is a Bitch though. But hey, more time for doom scrolling!
Destiny Calls Me
Do I answer?
- Nov 23, 2022
- 376
Ive always been a night owl so I find then nighttime more peaceful in a sense. Nobody is going to hit you up or bother you and less people out if I need to step out the house which alleviates anxiety.
Just wanted to say I have the same experience like the rollercoaster analogy. As time went on the highs stopped getting so high and the lows got lower, now the ride has stopped at the down point. Ultimately for the end.
