Is love not good enough reason to CTB?

[trayansh]

I was suicidal before I met her but I fell in love with her and for the first time I really wanted to live, I saw a future for myself. I never had goals before her because life didn't interest me but with her I had goals so that I can make her happy. We broke up few months ago because she said she loves me but isn't in love with me. And after that it's like I lost my purpose, motivation to go on. Ik some would say find other, there is lot of fish in the sea etc but tbh no one interests me, no one did even before I met her, she was the only one who could make me feel like that

 

[spectraltease]

Fuck, I feel that so much.
I don't think there is "that" reason go ctb. I mean we all have different problems and feelings I guess.

 

[rejected]

I was suicidal before I met her but I fell in love with her and for the first time I really wanted to live, I saw a future for myself. I never had goals before her because life didn't interest me but with her I had goals so that I can make her happy. We broke up few months ago because she said she loves me but isn't in love with me. And after that it's like I lost my purpose, motivation to go on. Ik some would say find other, there is lot of fish in the sea etc but tbh no one interests me, no one did even before I met her, she was the only one who could make me feel like that

I think how you feel is more than valid. I find myself in the same boat when I'm able to connect to someone on a level I didn't know I could feel. I suffer from cptsd and bpd but with all the try, focus on self, staying productive and efforts to move on, I always find myself stuck. N the lack of love aspect I believe is one of the driving factors. Especially if you're on default/ numb train most of your life then someone comes along and gives you a huge spark. Wakes ya up and makes you feel seen or even just being okay… good even to exist cause ya never have been able to before to that extent. Idk life is a developmental cycle no matter how ya slice it. N I think you have as much right over your exit as the people whom decided to have you enter. Depends on you. Not to be weird lol but I'd suggest going to the cemetery and find a tree or a tomb stone that calls ya (or both) n say how you feel and give space to be. Death is inevitable (thank the heavens) lol n ya got plenty of time to decide what's best for you

 

[Butterfly Moon]

No one can tell you a reason isn't good enough. You are the one carrying around this pain so it's relative to you. I know a lot of people would say "she ain't worth it" and "you'll meet someone else" but it's not easy to just let go if you were in love. Of course those statements are probably true but in the moment it's hard to believe them. They may even come across as a little invalidating at times.

I am not suggesting you do anything, I just want you to know it's ok to feel the way you feel.

Hugs to you

 

[TydalWave]

Love is always enough.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide doesn't even need a reason in the first place, it's a personal decision when to leave this life behind. Nobody is obligated to continue existing as none of us asked for this life in the first place. Also I agree with what has been said that nobody else has any right to tell you that your wish to die is not valid, I know that some people want to 'gatekeep' suicide but nobody else is experiencing life from your point of view and they cannot ever understand what you are going through. We all experience life differently and have different limits as to what we can cope with after all.

 

[Nikki2020]

i have bpd amongst ptsd depression and anxiety. but abandonment for those of us with bpd is debilitating. my ex and i split over a year ago and my heart hurts everyday. i miss him so much. i use to shake. i cry still. 13 yrs gone all because of me. there is more to the story so much has gone wrong since. I lost my everything. mentally I'm wanting out of this world. I'm not saying to do or not to anything. I don't know your story. but for me it is my only way to peace. I suffered enough. I hope whatever you decide you find peace. ❤

 

[botch3d]

It's opinion and I'm not in your shoes / situation. But my take is : if you're young and healthy , or even just not too old and healthy, keep going. Go workout etc anything force yourself . Not worth to ctb over a woman no matter how special she was .