is it worth it trying to get better?

[rest in peace]

after 10 years of constant suffering, is it better to just give up, at last?

 

[MediaPoisened]

At least tie up loose ends right? It's not even giving up, it's gaining the courage to finally change our situation. If it was as easy as giving up then why is it so hard? SI and Hope are easy to ignore for me now.

 

[rest in peace]

At least tie up loose ends right? It's not even giving up, it's gaining the courage to finally change our situation. If it was as easy as giving up then why is it so hard? SI and Hope are easy to ignore for me now.

how can i really ignore SI? honestly, closer i get to ctb, the less SI i have

 

[MediaPoisened]

how can i really ignore SI? honestly, closer i get to ctb, the less SI i have

To really really ignore it, I try to overload my emotions thinking of everything that triggers me. That empty feeling as my hormones subsides is pretty much how I know the end is near, so SI drops. I mean just flirt with it like way too close, have a plan, or get too close to an edge and see if the empty feeling is still there. If I'm undernourished or bedstuck than I do feel a call to the void but still have SI. So stay hydrated I guess lol

 

[LaVieEnRose]

That's unfortunately something only you can answer.

 

[Source Energy]

That's unfortunately something only you can answer.

This.
@ Rest In Peace Sorry I have no advice, but can I comment on how absolutely adorable your cat is? That's your cat in the avatar pic, isn't it?

 

[CTB Dream]

Vry sry, rly know how feel this understand, strgl strgl try try see time move suffer suffer, b sry feel this know how this v cruel how ppl posbl feel this . All,suffer try good bad all time move tjis v sad also make decidi hard. Awful life concept cruel , hug

 

[rest in peace]

This.
@ Rest In Peace Sorry I have no advice, but can I comment on how absolutely adorable your cat is? That's your cat in the avatar pic, isn't it?

lol its not my cat but i agree its pretty adorable

 

[Electronic Music]

I think involuntarily giving up due to your circumstances is one thing, and entirely understandable. But I think when you're at the point that you find yourself making a choice, I say keep going while you can. With respect to those who genuinely couldn't go a single day longer, if we find ourselves on the fence, we should do what we can to stay alive and look for that glimmer of light.

Not everyone gets the option to choose to give up. You got this friend, stay strong. Much love <3

 

[FuneralCry]

Only you can decide what you should do, it's a personal decision. But I believe that life in itself is suffering so there really is no such thing as getting "better", when the reality is that we exist in a world that is so incredibly cruel, where we exist just to suffer, deteriorate and die. Life itself will always be the true problem.

 

[gnomes]

Yes. I will not tell you to get better. But I will tell you what helped me has been finding topics and skills to learn. The world is full of vast mysteries which have nothing to do with the human condition or our feelings. Think about it. There are materials, elements, compounds, and forces, phenomena and places yet to be discovered. Or seemingly simple things we take for granted in our reality. We in some way can influence our perception. Death cognition loops are really hard to break out of because they are self affirming truth tables.

 

[rest in peace]

Yes. I will not tell you to get better. But I will tell you what helped me has been finding topics and skills to learn. The world is full of vast mysteries which have nothing to do with the human condition or our feelings. Think about it. There are materials, elements, compounds, and forces, phenomena and places yet to be discovered. Or seemingly simple things we take for granted in our reality. We in some way can influence our perception. Death cognition loops are really hard to break out of because they are self affirming truth tables.

it does make me feel more alive, but i dont knowif that is a long term solution

 

[downndone2]

Many can get better. If you feel you might, keep treading forward.

 

[Shadowlord900]

If you think there's realistically any small hope of your situation getting better enough to point where you'd think it'd be worth living, it's really down to you whether you think if you are able to achieve that, and are willing to go through what trials you may have to reach it.

There's no shame in believing if you can't and would rather just give up. Many people on this forum are more far sympathetic compared to the majority outside. Heck loads of people on this forum have given up in one way or another, that's why most of us are here.

 

[AngryDog]

TL;DR ----> I dunno.

10 years of suffering... That must have been horrible to endure. I hate to give the standard answer "it's up to you to decide" because I don't think it really helps much. I can give my personal point of view, from someone who's struggling with depression for a long time. Something that helps me when I go through phases of extreme sadness is one main philosophy:

The entire universe is, by default, meaningless.

It doesn't give a fuck if we live or die. You can argue that if that's the case, there's no point in living then. But there's no point in killing yourself either. The fact that all of us are alive carries no meaning whatsoever. Now I know this may not sound as a convincing argument, but it can be helpful in many cases. When someone suffers trauma, mental illness, bullying, or is going through a very bad circumstance, knowing that cruelty is not the main force in life can help a lot to put things in perspective and gives time to analize the situation before making an irreversible decision.

In my case, childhood trauma, a low paying job and depression because of hormonal inbalance has become a nightmare for years, and I've been suffering for months trying to find reasons to live. Being informed of how our brain works helped me a lot to deal with depression. I'm probably gonna live my entire life with that problem because trauma just doesn't go away and you need to learn how to live with that (which there aren't enough words in the english language that can describe HOW MUCH THAT SUCKS). However, there are many things that I like doing, and I'm curious about learning new skills. Looking for things you enjoy doing is especially hard but very rewarding once you find them.

So there isn't really one specific reason to get better. It will be a different one for each individual. It helps to try to understand your own personal struggles from an impartial point of view and simply having the desire to carry on. Only then one can change the way they see the future and actually improve their lives.

Hope it helps. Good luck!

 

[lovesurroundsyou]

To me personally, it isn't. It's not me that has to get better, it's society

 

[rest in peace]

TL;DR ----> I dunno.

10 years of suffering... That must have been horrible to endure. I hate to give the standard answer "it's up to you to decide" because I don't think it really helps much. I can give my personal point of view, from someone who's struggling with depression for a long time. Something that helps me when I go through phases of extreme sadness is one main philosophy:

The entire universe is, by default, meaningless.

It doesn't give a fuck if we live or die. You can argue that if that's the case, there's no point in living then. But there's no point in killing yourself either. The fact that all of us are alive carries no meaning whatsoever. Now I know this may not sound as a convincing argument, but it can be helpful in many cases. When someone suffers trauma, mental illness, bullying, or is going through a very bad circumstance, knowing that cruelty is not the main force in life can help a lot to put things in perspective and gives time to analize the situation before making an irreversible decision.

In my case, childhood trauma, a low paying job and depression because of hormonal inbalance has become a nightmare for years, and I've been suffering for months trying to find reasons to live. Being informed of how our brain works helped me a lot to deal with depression. I'm probably gonna live my entire life with that problem because trauma just doesn't go away and you need to learn how to live with that (which there aren't enough words in the english language that can describe HOW MUCH THAT SUCKS). However, there are many things that I like doing, and I'm curious about learning new skills. Looking for things you enjoy doing is especially hard but very rewarding once you find them.

So there isn't really one specific reason to get better. It will be a different one for each individual. It helps to try to understand your own personal struggles from an impartial point of view and simply having the desire to carry on. Only then one can change the way they see the future and actually improve their lives.

Hope it helps. Good luck!

thank you <3

 

[semicide]

Sounds horrible sorry to hear that but If you´re asking that question then maybe you dont want to really give up deep inside. Being uncertain sometimes shows that you still value life.
Good luck with life.