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DesireDeath
Member
- Feb 7, 2023
- 50
For those who have been reading my posts, it should be apparent that I am stuck with a sub4 male face. I have had surgery and it only made things worse. I can't get or hold a job, people do not want to socialize with me and everyone who has seen my face even online has treated me poorly or didn't want to be friends with me. There are a few things I could try including finishing post-secondary education, moving to a different country, trying to save up money. My only hope is advanced cosmetic surgery techniques attained through achieving singularity could fix my face and I could potentially live out a realistic positive life through fully immersive VR but neither of those things have been proven to exist for certain in the future, also I wish to merge with AI and become a cyborg, after fixing my face and experiencing an entire life's worth of memories in fully immersive VR. Either way is it worth living in the hopes of something that might occur 2-3 decades in the future? Part of me wants to just go through with SN, I am not scared of the process but rather the possibility of failure and the potential costs it might incur including hospitalization. Also, originally I had decided on staying alive at least until 2025 to see if my predictions come true, but time seems to be moving very slowly. Furthermore, I feel like I just want to experience a couple of positive things in life regular people get to experience before dying like having an enjoyable career or accomplishments that lead to being respected or ideally liked, but all these things are impossible without ASI, which might never occur.