Discussion Is it strange that I feel better when looking at this website, that I finally feel heard?

[seabed_adan]

This title may sound like I revel in hearing about how many others are depressed or suicidal, but I do not mean it in this way. I mean it in the sense that I finally feel safe here, whether I'm feeling actively suicidal or not, and even if no one really talks or responds to me, I still feel understood, not judged, not necessarily 'worried' about in that 'toxic' way it seems that close ones do. I know they try, but they will never really understand. I legitimately feel happier when I log off, even just reading what others have to say-- in the strangest way, it feels like a community, like I've been able to get everything out that I need to. I will say, I'm not happy that we're in this predicament, of course, but it's better to have feel somewhat relieved (at times) and suicidal than depressed and suicidal. This is, strangely, my therapy. It actually helps more than any therapy or medication ever has. I think I am just typing out to the void, but does anyone else feel this way? Like, relieved you can finally speak openly?

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I feel exactly the same.

 

[Kimlett]

Absolutely. Not strange at all. I feel the same. When I'm sick and tired of the mainstream narrative of "life is beautiful no matter what, and if you don't enjoy it, it's your fault", I come back here. I feel understood. These guys get it.

 

[Amile]

Not strange, no at all.
I came back after a very bad meltdown, and this place relieved me more than any other site or thing.

 

[LostLily]

not strange, that why a lot of us come here