Help Is it selfish to sh?

[moya117]

I'm months without cutting (yippe?) Cause I don't want my mom to know, it is forced and really sudden. While I'm not cutting in months, i switch to something to fill the gaps, I began peeling the heels of my feet to the point where It's bleeding and i can't walk properly, ofc my mom notice, but since I don't really use any tools it's not that big of a deal ig, I don't refeal much that i'm in pain when I walk anyway, I suck it up so she doesn't know how far it is. It's really addicting, and a lot of those times I don't even realize I'm doing it till I can feel the blood, it's affecting my daily life. Should I just really switch to cutting again or no? I don't know anymore, I'm scared and confused, I HAVE to stay alive, I HAVE to, for the sake of my mom and my little sister. It's okay to sh right? As long as I'm alive, right mom?

 

[アホペンギン]

If you dont want your mom to see then you can try cutting in places that are covered up for most of the day (your chest or your thighs) I don't have any advice to give about you staying alive, though.

 

[Rack.-]

I'm months without cutting (yippe?) Cause I don't want my mom to know, it is forced and really sudden. While I'm not cutting in months, i switch to something to fill the gaps, I began peeling the heels of my feet to the point where It's bleeding and i can't walk properly, ofc my mom notice, but since I don't really use any tools it's not that big of a deal ig, I don't refeal much that i'm in pain when I walk anyway, I suck it up so she doesn't know how far it is. It's really addicting, and a lot of those times I don't even realize I'm doing it till I can feel the blood, it's affecting my daily life. Should I just really switch to cutting again or no? I don't know anymore, I'm scared and confused, I HAVE to stay alive, I HAVE to, for the sake of my mom and my little sister. It's okay to sh right? As long as I'm alive, right mom?

I mean... I don't think it's literally "selfish" to sh because it's your own body after all but even if it helps you to cope with strong emotions you need to understand that your close relatives will worry about your safety when they notice. I honestly don't think that sh is a good way to address strong emotional thoughts because it will only provides temporary relief but also affect negatively the love and care you have for yourself... I know everything is so difficult, I'm here if you need someone to talk. Sending you much love

 

[FuneralCry]

I've never been into self harm but I think it's a personal decision deciding whether to do it, I get that for many people it makes existing more bearable, it acts as like a coping mechanism.

 

[OnceThougtTwiceDone]

No, not at all.

 

[moya117]

If you dont want your mom to see then you can try cutting in places that are covered up for most of the day (your chest or your thighs) I don't have any advice to give about you staying alive, though.

I'll consider that, thank you<3

I mean... I don't think it's literally "selfish" to sh because it's your own body after all but even if it helps you to cope with strong emotions you need to understand that your close relatives will worry about your safety when they notice. I honestly don't think that sh is a good way to address strong emotional thoughts because it will only provides temporary relief but also affect negatively the love and care you have for yourself... I know everything is so difficult, I'm here if you need someone to talk. Sending you much love

I know it's a temporarily relief, but that's all I have, I don't want to be a burden by venting to someone ya, thank you for your kind words, sending you much much love <3

I've never been into self harm but I think it's a personal decision deciding whether to do it, I get that for many people it makes existing more bearable, it acts as like a coping mechanism.

Yeah, it is my coping mechanism, and once you "tried" it, it's though to not do it again.

No, not at all.

Thank you, I've been feeling like that for a long time, thank you really.

Sending you all virtual hugs<3, I hope you find peace, no matter the way