Is it really that bad?

[cotton]

There are lots of reasons it's bad, and that not dealing with life seems totally easier. Whether something is truly lost though lies within the individual I guess, but all in all, is it really so bad you could say it's like letting go doesn't matter? Or to not do something about it all is meaningless? Or anything?

 

[TheHolySword]

CTBing is doing something, for me anyways. I've tried all my life. Seen plenty of therapists, tried numerous medications. Not dealing with it isn't easier, that's why I'm going to die, because I'm finally dealing with it.

 

[Depressive_Thoughts]

I'm trying, I'm trying so hard....

 

[FuneralCry]

No matter what existence will always be something really bad to me, I see it as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings until death takes away all anyway. I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem as it's the source of all suffering and my wish to die is a result of existence, it's a result of being conscious in this torturous, unnecessary existence there was never a need for at all, I find it such a tragedy how this existence was even imposed, I just find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence and I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible.

I'd never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just wish and hope to be non-existent incapable of suffering in any way, I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious than suffer all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake. The thought of suffering for much longer with no limit as to how unbearable it can get just to face the extreme agony of old age is so horrific to me, I just wish I was never forced into this and I wish there's the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I do so much for others and it's rarely returned. I don't hold resentment over it. but it's hurtful when someone implies that simply staying in touch (this is what I thought was a good friend who moved to another major city) is exhausting. it's hurtful even if that wasn't their intention.

1 of 10000 problems. fuck.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

Can't walk out and leave my abusive teenager because I'd have the guilt of leaving. So here I stay. To get hit, spat and yelled at most days.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

It is that bad, yes

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

This is so beautifully captured and written to why this world is so toxic to leave out from. It's a menace, it's a stain, it's crap, and it's hell!!

No matter what existence will always be something really bad to me, I see it as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings until death takes away all anyway. I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem as it's the source of all suffering and my wish to die is a result of existence, it's a result of being conscious in this torturous, unnecessary existence there was never a need for at all, I find it such a tragedy how this existence was even imposed, I just find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence and I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible.

I'd never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just wish and hope to be non-existent incapable of suffering in any way, I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious than suffer all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake. The thought of suffering for much longer with no limit as to how unbearable it can get just to face the extreme agony of old age is so horrific to me, I just wish I was never forced into this and I wish there's the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence.