I hate my body and mind, why should I love it?
Dear friend, without lying, How heavy does that thought feel?
There are no shoulds anywhere in the universe, it's just a kind suggestion, just as strong negative feelings are lovingly suggesting to us that we're judging reality somewhere and aren't with what's true. Truth is near when we feel light, joyful, at peace, and content, it's heaven, but if we're suffering, hating ourselves, judging everything all the time, thinking in terms of good and bad, then we're in hell. The choice is truly ours because remember, the kingdom of heaven is within, the world is reflecting us back to ourselves, it's a mirror.
I just took a long hot shower sitting down and it was really healing, highly recommend it, it's like giving your body the looongest hug ever! :)
Also, dim the lights down if you can and just close your eyes while listening to the water, it's the best, I've really been neglecting my body lately, and will do this more often now. It's crazy how unconditionally our bodies love us no matter how much we mistreat it, just feels right to give something back.
I am to hyper active to relax and meditate.
You don't need to meditate, there is no meditator, meditation is what we
are. The "I" that has all these problems and attributes on the other hand does need to be "done", it's invented by the mind moment-to-moment, it's a story. That which is effortlessly
aware of these words right now is meditation itself, it was never not aware, it is permanent, but thoughts come and go, they can't be who you
are. See, you are prior to the idea of you, and without thinking, only "awareness" remains, so don't ever define yourself, you are beyond all labels, be they positive or negative ones, you are undefinable, as am I, and we both meet in the everpresent silence behind all these words.