Help Is it possible to get rid of long term suicidal thoughts ?

[bittersweetly]

I've had suicidal thoughts since childhood, I've never seen a future for myself my whole life.
Even when i try now i can't
I can't imagine that I will live in the end after all these attempts
How can i live really??
I don't have any big dreams because i thought i was going to die all my life
I can't put my effort into anything for the future, and with every small problem I face, I get suicidal once again.

How do people who have recovered move on?

 

[LittleJem]

The only thing that ever helps me is a drug or medication, these can get rid of the thoughts. Im guessing youve tried those. In that case, big hugs. It really sucks.

 

[fedup1982]

It's taken 20 years but the thoughts have mostly faded

 

[bittersweetly]

The only thing that ever helps me is a drug or medication, these can get rid of the thoughts. Im guessing youve tried those. In that case, big hugs. It really sucks.

I haven't tried them, I didn't think they might really help or change anything
What medication did you take? What was your experience like?

 

[Eriktf]

Depends on your situation but yes

Definition on insanity is to do the same thing twice and expect different results.

Hard truth is you need to change whatever makes you suicidal in the first place if not then you probably stay suicidal. If its your brain chemistry then maybe meds, if your unhealthy then try getting healthier, etc. Not saying its easy or even possible in all cases.

 

[M3lancholia]

I've never got rid of them but there's been periods where the thoughts are pushed further back in my mind and I can detach from them - my energy returns and I can do things that I want to do like travel and socialise. Having something to look forward to helps - it's not easy but knowing that you can leave this life whenever you want actually makes it easier to stay.
Big hugs

 

[emotion]

I think with the right (after/follow up) care and treatment it can be possible. But it might take a while before you find what works for you. Which, if you are receiving therapy, I'd try to stay open for everything at least for the first few sessions. And, like LittleJem mentioned, the right type of medication if applicable for your symptoms.

I've been suicidal for nearly 3 decades and nowadays it's mostly just background noise, and I've learned to manage it as best as I can. I really don't know how, but I think therapy that focused on becoming more in tune on how I feel and what I want/need in the moment helped in that.

When things get intense I basically cancel as much as I can and I rest and recuperate until I start to get interested in hobbies/regain my appetite etc. again. That's literally the only thing that works for me. I also try to plan things so I'll have to stick around (e.g. order something that'll take another week to arrive, plan to go to my favourite shop/museum etc.).
It's not ideal, but I've come a long way and I'm still hopeful it can improve.