Discussion Is it normal to not feel great before CTB day?

[AngelBritney]

I have my date, my method...

The last days were good, I was in a happier mood but today I feel down, really depressed, empty, tired.

Is it a sign that I am not ready yet to CTB next week?

 

[rs929]

I have my date, my method...

The last days were good, I was in a happier mood but today I feel down, really depressed, empty, tired.

Is it a sign that I am not ready yet to CTB next week?

I think only you can answer that. I don't know if you are supposed to be on a good mood the days before CTB but I'd say if you are not sure if you are ready, probably you are not ready.

 

[heroin300]

if you are feeling like shit then most likely you are uncertain, guilty, scared, etc. just think about what could be making you feel this way about it

 

[Mooncry]

I'd say if you are not sure if you are ready, probably you are not ready.

I hear that a lot around here, and personally, I don't think it's that black and white. Obviously not trying to encourage anyone to kill themselves if they don't feel ready, but in the same breath, I think it's perfectly normal to feel uncertainty in the days leading up to your attempt—especially so on the day itself. Death is scary and a suicide attempt is unpredictable. It's only natural that you're going to be questioning the hell out of yourself. I think OP's feelings are perfectly normal.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I think it is a sign. Best not to proceed if you don't feel ready. I personally wouldn't attempt until after the mercury retrograde shadow period is over (on Dec 16th) because of an increased risk that it won't go as expected. If you're even the least bit superstitious, well, that gives you a good excuse to put it off for a few more weeks. Either way, I hope you feel better .

 

[ArsTenebrae]

I understand you. I too was feeling down two days before my suicide attempt.

 

[HangMan123]

Well, suicide is a very serious choice, and you shouldn't go through with it if you have even an iota doubt.
So the fact that you're still upset is probably an indicator that you should hold off for now (in my opinion).