
HillWhereIWillRest
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- Apr 21, 2020
- 44
I don't know how to keep people close. There's always a reason they leave. I've been protecting myself from feeling anything for anyone. I'm so tired of everything going wrong.
It's been a while since I've had any thoughts of CTB. I recently reconnected with someone after a year of no contact. He was responsive, we met up yesterday, and I hugged him for about 5 minutes. He's interested in me but doesn't want a relationship because he just got out of one last year and wants to focus on financial stability.
I told him I'd love to be his friend. Then he stopped replying.
After so long feeling lonely, I finally felt some affection that filled me. And he pulled away. I have BPD, and rejection hurts so much!!! Can't stand being like this.
It's been a while since I've had any thoughts of CTB. I recently reconnected with someone after a year of no contact. He was responsive, we met up yesterday, and I hugged him for about 5 minutes. He's interested in me but doesn't want a relationship because he just got out of one last year and wants to focus on financial stability.
I told him I'd love to be his friend. Then he stopped replying.
After so long feeling lonely, I finally felt some affection that filled me. And he pulled away. I have BPD, and rejection hurts so much!!! Can't stand being like this.