Help Is it bad I want to die beautiful?

[sometimes.sometimes]

I am currently thinking about plans to CTB. It doesn't mean I am going to do it, but I have been thinking about it. My plan, however, is so hard to pull off and very picky, in a sense. I feel dumb for that, but I have my reasonings. I want to die beautiful. I have been thinking of ways to pull this off. I don't know if I want to talk about my plan in depth, but it just surrounds the feeling of wanting to die beautifully.

 

[day]

While it seems hard I also feel the same way, just don't know how to go about it.

I find death to be a form of art and I'd like to keep my body in remain and intact. I want to look peaceful because I believe I will finally be at peace. However with methods such a as SN or OD which to a degree sound the best way at the moment, I fear I'll vomit and convulsing could lead to me looking uncomfortable.

 

[Valky]

Not at all. After all, this will be the way we will found and maybe even remembered by :) if it already has to be such a bad thing that we can only escape life this way, why not make it beautiful?

 

[Lost Magic]

Nope, it's actually quite normal to want to die with some beauty (if you can). Nothing wrong with that at all. Just do what is right for you.

 

[liljeep]

No... many people pick overdoses over hanging, self-mutilation, etc, because they don't want to leave a mess. They'd rather be found looking nearly the same as they did while alive. And I share the sentiment. I don't want anyone's last image of me to be a gorey one.

 

[strawb12]

Even if thats not something a lot of other people might think about its totally valid if you want to die beautifully. Everyone should be able to die how they want to & theres nothing wrong with wanting to ctb while beautiful.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I think it's perfectly understandable feeling in such a way, in my case I would ideally wish for a death that is as peaceful as possible.

 

[PorcelainDollEyebag]

For my own plans on CTB I plan on making it as artistic and beautiful as possible, my appearance very much included. I think it's something that you have to get creative with. My own method is painful for awhile before I pass but leaves my body intact where I need it to be, so it's important to consider whether you prioritize beauty or low amounts of pain. I picked out a nice outfit to wear for it and am still choosing how I'd like my hair. Everything in life can be seen as art and that also includes death.

 

[saddestbunny]

it makes sense you'd want something that represents peace / moving on / beauty to show that for others. I'd want mine to be accurately shown to be "OK" (as much as possible) and not a horrific accident that had happened to me so I get u

 

[fiftyfiftyclown]

it's normal. the most accessible/lethal methods leave a gruesome scene and puts me off a bit