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Max1714

Max1714

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Dec 18, 2025
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about 2 months now too, I CTB I have a plan on my 19th at 8:00 pm via hanging. One problem is what comes after death, is it really better than this? If so, does it matter? We will all die anyway, right? I want death more than anything, but nothingness sounds scary.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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I don't really enjoy life now though. I suppose it depends on if you do. Who knows what's next. It's all horrific
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,310
Eternal nothingness Is not scary to me

1. Non-existence forever: If don't exist I can't suffer pain a billion times worse than I can imagine. As before I was born I didn't exist this wasn't scary to me and I couldn't suffer

2.while alive I can suffer pain a billion times worse than I can imagine every second the constant worst pain for years not a seconds' relief

Which is a better state to be in ?

To me eternal non-existence is a trillion times better

Death is permanent Non-existence

2. while alive a human or other animal can suffer extremely but not if they don't exist. a brain eating parasite or tapeworm, burning of most of skin but remaining alive , kidney stones, stroke or brain damage but remaining alive, atrhritis, , cancer , accidents leaving one in pain, grief or heartbreak for years, starvation homeless in cold wind , kidnappng torture (junko furuta), painful diseases, many more example of extreme suffering in life / existence.

eternal Non-existence is the only guarantee of never suffering so badly it's a trillion times worse than the worst u can imagine

eternal Non-existence is the only guarantee of never suffering extremely, never suffering at all, no problems no bad memories, no pain forever so it's the only perfection and to me the best thing by far by a quintillion times. they say im supposed to fear this state of never any pain. i will never fear Death . ... no diseases no old age torture no decay ever
 
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Warum

Warum

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Feb 11, 2026
84
there will be nothing after death. you will never enjoy things again but also not suffer. ultimately, if you are healthy i believe death is not better sadly. death is an escape for many suffering. an alternative to being in pain.
 
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thehorizons

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Mar 25, 2026
18
I have had supernatural accounts first-hand and heard from others close to me (things that seem farfetched but unexplainable by science) that make me believe in some sort of afterlife in terms of the soul lingering afterwards. I don't believe in the concept of heaven or hell though. With reincarnation, maybe, I'm not sure. I've been thinking about this a lot though since I'm planning to CTB this year. I was thinking if I CTB then it'll be over and done with and move on to the next life (if you believe that sort of thing).

But then I thought recently, what if the next one isn't so glamarous. What if you're reincarnated as someone who's chronically depressed or someone thrown into hardship in the next life? Maybe, I'll be reincarnated into something worse. When will the cycle end?

In my situation, right now, I'm sick. But it's not to the extent that I can't do anything yet, so it got me thinking since most of the methods seem like non-methods then maybe I could wait it out until I get really sick then I would be eligible for MAID in Canada or VAD in Switzerland. I don't know. Maybe I'm getting off topic, but, yeah, there could be a possibility of an afterlife that's not so glamarous.
 
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iset

iset

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Nov 28, 2024
71
For me, it's the other way round. Nothingness doesn't frighten me, because when there's nothing left, you can't feel anything either. It's beyond the bounds of imagination, but precisely because it's the complete opposite of everything here, I find it so comforting.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,754
For me it'll always be, in this existence so torturous, cruel and dreadful that just causes endless amounts of torture, harm and suffering the peace of non-existence truly is all I see as desirable and positive, all I want is to be permanently unconscious of this existence I just always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake.

For me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the torture of existing, no matter what this existence should never be imposed and I'll always see existence as the problem, for me the peace of non-existence would solve everything and I'd only be so glad to finally be at peace from the torturous, dreadful burden, to be conscious in this existence will always be an abomination to me no matter what, it'll always be so torturous to exist. All I want is to erase this existence that just causes all this suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I just want it to be like I never suffered at all.
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
237
I really hope it is. In this existence we are stucked in our mind, being constantly tortured by our thoughts without even realizing it. These brains evolved purely for survival, completely desregarding our happiness or the quality of the experience. It's hard to imagine something much worse.
 

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