Discussion Is CTB a fantasy or an eventual reality for you ; 0 is a fantasy 10 is how you will end your life

[wait-bus-stop]

I am clearly in the 10 range - its how I will end my life - someday

 

[Zegers]

What is actually real?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Barring some unforeseen miracle happening (which I don't believe in anyway), the eventuality of taking my own life in the very near future is certainly a 10.

 

[GasMonkey]

10

 

[yive]

10

 

[qwerty1969]

I like to think it's a 10

 

[trist]

10

 

[outrider567]

10

 

[Kundalini Guy]

10 by far

 

[BloatedGloater]

I am absolutely going to end up killing myself. Probably between the age 60-65. Maybe I'll decide to live to 70 if something exciting is happening in the near future, like a new grandchild or a great grand child even... assuming I'll have my health still.
I don't want to get very old.
I don't want to have assistance in all I do.
I don't want to have to leave my house, or live in nursing homes or hospitals.
I don't want to whither away slowly and painfully.
I want to die when I CHOOSE to die. And so, that leaves me with suicide at a "decent" age. My life is fine I guess. I live like a leech, a failure living off governmental support. I soend my days trying to get better as well as trying to create a happy functional young person (and I'm doing well, my child is very happy and seems to have good control over emotions❤) I couldn't leave my family now. I have no reason big enough today. I just took up a new hobby, and I'm not gonna let it get away from me

I guess my rule of thumb for myself is that when my health starts permanently declining, I'll have to go. I might even make it known to my family when the time comes.
Although I hope assisted suicide will be legalized (maybe even normalized) by the time I need to CTB.
It's about 4-5 decades onwards from today so I guess that's one more thing be hopeful for, the potential of N coming back on the market in the time I have allotted myself

Sorry for the long rant to the easy question. I just needed to talk a bit. Sorry, I'll shut up

 

[SleepyRobloxGrl]

10. It's just a matter of when I'll do it. Could be soon, could be a while. I keep getting guilted by family and friends to keep living, and I'm trying to overcome the guilt of leaving them before I ultimately do it. It's easier said than done to ignore the guilt, for me at least.

 

[bloberta]

i dont know. sometimes its 0, sometimes 10. im scared of dying and i think i want to get better and be happy but i dont know how and i dont know if i can.

 

[OceanBlue]

10. Ideally I'd like to walk into a clinic and get peaceful assisted death, but idiots in the government won't allow it anytime soon, so hopefully I will manage to kms with one of the methods from here.

 

[dingokettle3531]

I'd say 10 if it wasn't for the unreliability of some methods and how hard some of the most reliable ones are to get

 

[pharma]

9. i have to give myself a morsel of hope. something that gets me to the end of the day

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

What is actually real?

Extreme pain and extreme suffering are real.

10 I will ctb. For sure

 

[Ernest1964]

My hope is that some time before I turn 65+, I will CTB. I am 58 and in fairly ok health right now. I do have the means, just not the will... yet.

 

[StarlightDreamer]

Also 9. There's always the chance I find enough hope to carry me into old age. But a lot can happen in the span of decades. I might be [further] crippled, or my friends might leave me. I might decide I've suffered enough.

 

[white_bear]

I would say 7 for me. I can't bare the thought of my parents losing another kid so that's my main factor that's stopping me.

 

[leloyon]

Solid 10.

 

[killmeiwannadie]

i'm at an 8. not being able to decide on a method i'm comfortable with, the one i am comfortable with the option to get a gun is not likely for me…it would be a 10 if i had a clear cut method that i was sure of and comfortable with. plus the possibility of failure is always looming. i just feel like it would be just my luck…idk. i hope i'll be able to tho. or that i'll at least die soon somehow

 

[RW__Asher23]

10, unless my illness gets me first. NOT going to happen! Yes 10+

 

[SorrowfulDrugUser]

Varies on a day to day basis, I try to be an optimist however. I come on this forum mainly for the purpose of gaining the insight of others going through a similar situation. Sometimes it reminds me that I'm not the only one and that gives me some sort of hope.

 

[ivzxkou]

10. can't imagine it any other way. unless i get into some freak accident. that would be fine too.

 

[goodbye_._]

10 for sure, it wasn't always a 10 but it's really my time.

 

[shinohara]

7-8? I don't plan on doing it anytime soon, so for now it's more in the realm of fantasy I suppose

 

[User00]

10 eventually I'll do it. Failed a few times. Looking for better way to go. (Already know a way for me to go)

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'd say a 7. I'm not utterly convinced I will do it but it seems very likely.

 

[Haruka]

10. I was hoping to CTB before I turn 20, but unsure if that is possible, so most likely in my 20s it will happen.

 

[borderline-feline]

I would put it at a 5. It's currently more of a fantasy, but my entire reality feels surreal, which is part of why I don't like being alive. Nothing feels real; it all just feels like a really vivid dream.

I want to kill myself, but I won't be able to do it any time soon due to a promise I made to my favorite person.