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crybabyx

crybabyx

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Apr 5, 2026
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I'm curious if anyone else feels like the only thing stopping you from ctb is any kind of entertainment media you love, like you can't die because your favourite artist is dropping an album that you're really exited for, or a show you like is coming out with a new season.


personally, what kept me alive for so long was waiting for hades 2 to come out then when it did, it became waiting for silksong to come out, after that it was waiting for the new invincible season, it literally feels like even tho my life is miserable and i wanna ctb so bad, every time i actually make the decision i get intense fomo for everything that's gonna come out after i die.

does anyone else deal with this?
 
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hiding the roses

wwx
Mar 29, 2026
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Yeah, actually. I had planned to ctb much sooner, but ironically Superman (2025) made me rethink my choices and stay around for a while longer, but im back again, and waiting for subnautica 2 most likely, but life has always been a bitch
 
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It used to be, but these past few years I have been bored of everything aside from the occasional book I read. Some books I definitely would not have ctb while reading them as they felt more real than reality.

Otherwise, I can only enjoy media through other people now as second hand enjoyment. The only thing that makes me want to ctb less is other people's attention and praise, but this doesn't particularly last and nor is it worth the effort I put in to acquire it.
 
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v0wkeeper

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Feb 17, 2026
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i wish i struggled with fomo like you, i dont know what to do anymore.
 
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Yeah, actually. I had planned to ctb much sooner, but ironically Superman (2025) made me rethink my choices and stay around for a while longer, but im back again, and waiting for subnautica 2 most likely, but life has always been a bitch
it's crazy how silly movies and video games can mean so much to us.

also if u ever want someone to play with you can dm me <3
 
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Feb 8, 2026
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I'm curious if anyone else feels like the only thing stopping you from ctb is any kind of entertainment media you love, like you can't die because your favourite artist is dropping an album that you're really exited for, or a show you like is coming out with a new season.
This is quite literally happening to me lol
A game series I'm obsessed with right now is dropping a new new line of games (which has the potential to become the first in a line of 7 games) so that's basically what I'm hanging on for 😅
 
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hiding the roses

hiding the roses

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Mar 29, 2026
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it's crazy how silly movies and video games can mean so much to us.

also if u ever want someone to play with you can dm me <3
I'd defenitely be down, just depends on how soon since I do have plans already in mind if its after June-ish
 
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