Is anyone still attending therapy even though they are certain to CTB? Why?

[OneBigBlur]

I still can't decide whether I should keep going for the time being or not. I don't really have anything else to keep me distracted until my exit but therapy often makes me feel much worse even though it helps keep me sane. Why do you still go?

 

[WhiteDespair]

It's better to exhaust all options before CtB so you are able to say you made an attempt.

"I tried nothing and nothing worked!" makes you look like a chump.

 

[LMLN]

I think that's why I keep going to therapy. To satisfy myself that I tried.

 

[enjoy]

not in therapy at the moment, but when i did go during the summer it was because i had the tiniest shreds of hope left. i thought that if i kept going, my life still had the feasibility to miraculously change somehow. i'm planning to go back soon because i still have a little bit of hope. while i dislike being alive, i'm secretly quite desperate to find a reason behind my existence. also, i'd rather go out medicated than unmedicated; i'm currently the latter, and it's hell on earth.

 

[mediocre]

I only go to my psychiatrist and my GP because they prescribe my medication. I keep hoping to get something stronger like Xanax. They ask me the same questions over and over again.

 

[Astral316]

I go because I'm court ordered. My therapist is a windbag with one too many anecdotes so I don't get anything from the sessions but Monday should be the last before I ctb around new years.

 

[passenger27]

I don't even know why I keep seeing a therapist. It's been years & I haven't been enlightened yet. Habit I guess?

 

[Squiddy]

I'm about to start back up therapy because I have a tiny shred of hope maybe it will help me

 

[Nem]

I'm not sure, my therapist is really shitty though, like I'd be better off killing my self in her office since that's about all it's good for
Peace/hugs

 

[a.n.kirillov]

I'm not sure, my therapist is really shitty though, like I'd be better off killing my self in her office since that's about all it's good for
Peace/hugs

Please before you go write that as a yelp review of your t.

 

[I’vehadenough]

I still see my therapist because she is supportive of my choice to end my life and she helps ease my death anxiety

 

[NeCkDeEp]

I'm forced to get myself in to that on Monday cause my mental health advisor will otherwise inform the cops about my situation.
Anyway recovery feels to me like a path that will take ages and I don't want to get in to 2020 with recovery, I'm gonna play it cool and avoid fuss with cops until SN arrives to ctb

 

[LMLN]

I'm forced to get myself in to that on Monday cause my mental health advisor will otherwise inform the cops about my situation.
Anyway recovery feels to me like a path that will take ages and I don't want to get in to 2020 with recovery, I'm gonna play it cool and avoid fuss with cops until SN arrives to ctb

Recovery feels exhausting and way too long to endure for me. :(

 

[NeCkDeEp]

Recovery feels exhausting and way too long to endure for me. :(

I feel you, I hope that the both of us will find the peace we are looking for asap

 

[OneBigBlur]

I'm not sure, my therapist is really shitty though, like I'd be better off killing my self in her office since that's about all it's good for
Peace/hugs

This made me laugh but also feel kind of bad for your therapist.

I still see my therapist because she is supportive of my choice to end my life and she helps ease my death anxiety

That must be really nice, be sure to give her a hug before you go. There aren't very many compassionate people like that.

 

[sooverallthingslife]

I go to keep up appearances. If people believe you are getting well, they won't bother you as much. It'll be a surprise to so many when all the sudden you are in fact DEAD.

 

[starshotplagues]

I still see my therapist because she is supportive of my choice to end my life and she helps ease my death anxiety

god i wish i had your therapist

 

[I’vehadenough]

god i wish i had your therapist

Find one that understands sometimes there is no solution to the suffering

 

[RestingGirl23]

I've taken up counseling. Feel the same way you do, not really helping with anything but it grounds me for a couple of days. I guess the the whole point of going is that you can ctb anytime you want so being alive a couple of days doesn't really make a difference? At least, I would rather know that I tried everything before committing.

 

[hobbydevil]

Because I do have a tiny bit of hope left, I suppose. That, and because my therapist is one of the nicest people I've met especially when it comes to people working in the mental health field/therapists in general.
Can't bring myself to end working with her, and she also wouldn't let me, I think, as she reads me far, far too well.

 

[Tearygirl]

Now I quit counseling, but I attended there because I just wanted to say to someone, and wanted to be with someone.

 

[Moonicide]

Nope, before even deciding to ctb my therapist retired and I've been on the waiting list for 4 months now or so. So I've been without therapy for that length. Do not miss it, honestly. I also rescheduled my psychiatrist appointment for the 31st because I intend to not be alive on that date, but considering I've caught a cold now I don't know if I'll be able to keep my ctb date.

 

[Tearygirl]

Nope, before even deciding to ctb my therapist retired and I've been on the waiting list for 4 months now or so. So I've been without therapy for that length. Do not miss it, honestly. I also rescheduled my psychiatrist appointment for the 31st because I intend to not be alive on that date, but considering I've caught a cold now I don't know if I'll be able to keep my ctb date.

I'm sorry for you to feel that way.. I feel heartbreak for you. I hope my SN arrives soon so that I don't need to see anyone in this forum dies. It hurts me very much.
With tons of love

 

[Azzy69]

To 'convince' my family that I am willing to get better so I do not worry them.

 

[Emily123]

it is a good idea to attend trapy or get any possible help even by the last day . There can be something that we can change in our lives and get back to the happy days . I am still thinking about another plastic surgery however it may be the last month of my life

 

[astro]

I am still in therapy and my therapist seems to be slightly optimistic that my situation could improve. Atleast that's the vibe I get, however, even if I should get better I would probably still opt to ctb since I really don't want to have to worry about relapsing and being like I am right now again, But who knows.

 

[Pan]

Good question...why bother...at last the bill won't be paid...

 

[Ghost2211]

I am still doing therapy. I know I will ctb, but since I can't yet I might as well work through other issues so i have more peace when I go.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

I would love to have some end of life therapy, geared towards accepting i am going to CTB. It is super emotional, as i'm sure we all know, and it's a shame we don't have more ready access to that.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I promised my wife. I just started and ended up being diagnosed with ptsd two weeks ago. Sending me to new therapist soon. I promised and swore I would go.