starboy2k
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- May 21, 2025
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For what, honestly? Unless the therapist is just as suicidal as me if not more.
I'm tired. Not just tiredâburnt out, irritated, done.
When I screwed up, it was made crystal clear: my fault, my punishment, no escape. When I got screwed over, though? Nothing. No reassurance, no backupâjust "move on," like it didn't matter. My consequences were immediate and harsh. Any sense of justice for me never showed up.
So why the hell should I learn to regulate my emotions more? I'm already so quiet, Im basically emotionally numb. I only express myself behind closed doors, and y'all that's what's society expects. I BARELY meltdownâand when I do, it's for a reason. But somehow, I'm still the one being looked at like I'm the problem.
To make it worse, I will never get any apologies or admissions from people who made me feel like a fucking anomaly throughout my life⌠I'll only get "you need therapy." The evil in humanity will never fix itself; it will only bully people into adapting to it via therapy and meds. And if you don't complyâboomâneglect, petty avoidance, destitution, and possible imprisonment.
Nah, I'm good. I'm absolutely at my wits' end, but I'm good nonetheless.
I'm tired. Not just tiredâburnt out, irritated, done.
When I screwed up, it was made crystal clear: my fault, my punishment, no escape. When I got screwed over, though? Nothing. No reassurance, no backupâjust "move on," like it didn't matter. My consequences were immediate and harsh. Any sense of justice for me never showed up.
So why the hell should I learn to regulate my emotions more? I'm already so quiet, Im basically emotionally numb. I only express myself behind closed doors, and y'all that's what's society expects. I BARELY meltdownâand when I do, it's for a reason. But somehow, I'm still the one being looked at like I'm the problem.
To make it worse, I will never get any apologies or admissions from people who made me feel like a fucking anomaly throughout my life⌠I'll only get "you need therapy." The evil in humanity will never fix itself; it will only bully people into adapting to it via therapy and meds. And if you don't complyâboomâneglect, petty avoidance, destitution, and possible imprisonment.
Nah, I'm good. I'm absolutely at my wits' end, but I'm good nonetheless.
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